Hearts are empty rooms & Splendor falls

So after much affirmation, I've decided to start a time table so I can keep track of my (accelarating) pace till prelims. & a new one after prelims. I will work on the first time table today. Countdown to prelims is: twenty six days & to actual O's is sixty seven days. I'm not running away but I'm right on my way.

Could I ever ____, but life goes on...

UNSOLVED Suffocated wronged reasons bad days superficial unpredictable whore collide possibilities uninspired promises supposingly faded cynical funloving killjoy mistakes runaway genuine brokeness insecurities disease dark bittering MYSTERIES
(JAMPACKED thoughts, for you)