Music: Rag Doll - Aerosmith

Life is a fast ride/life is a standstill. You see the contradiction. Sometimes this really bothers me. But really, don't you find life like this? You accelerate then you've a sudden stop. There's something wrong with the world today, everyone knows & we're just hanging on. I don't know what it is, but I know we're living on the edge. A one way street but sometimes I feel I gotta go the other way. For now, give it all you got until you're put out of your misery.

Beauty in words. How they don't mean what they sound but how they make expressions.

Tell me all the dreams you have left

So 70% of the chinese O's is over. According to my sister & aunt who went through my answers, they said that I won't fair too badly (which means there's hope hur). Thank God, my God was with me! Now that's left with 30% which is oral & listening. Awww how am I gonna kill for oral. Damn.

Great World City & had lunch with favourite girls & Mrs Tan (we squeezed into her car). Then to Saga City & Art Friend to get stuff Mrs Tan need to paint her homeroom. Jill was facinated with thick 6B pencils & black carbon sticks (that made her fingers ewww black & dirty). So she wanna do art. Ooooh Jill, service yeah? Hahah.

I'm feeling sick, so maybe no school for me tomorrow. So much for being frighten last night & waking up at hourly intervals. I need sleep.

What I do & who I am, that's all I have to give. What you get is what you see, no second guessing, no pretending. All I ever have to be is me.

Knew that was over my head

Div1 finals result was 4-1 to Rec's favour. Chin up, everyone. What's important is that you girls played well alright? Good talking with Mrs Tan & Victoria. Went to meet mum & zoeleen. It was a wasted trip cause we didn't do much. Should have gone for dinner with Bernetta & Carolyn. All the best to all sitting for Chinese O's on monday. Blessed!

Somehow I know we'll be separated (is sucky).
I feel wasted (& tired & weary).

Walk through the doors of my mind

So my mum texted me this: Happiness isn't found at the end of the road. It is experienced along the way. So find a reason to be happy each day of your life. Life is beautiful (still looking for the right reason).

Num 6:24-25 "The Lord bless you & keep you; the Lord make His face shine upon you & be gracious to you." Rejoice because Jesus (my saviour) is good! He sent me an angel who's gonna give me good help tomorrow. The dsa thing is growing worrysome. With my current (unpresentable) grades, I can only pray that a miracle will happen. Keep praying for me alright? Blessed are those who trust in the Lord :)

Something interesting. I bought lots of junk food yesterday during grocery shopping.

Here are some stocks in the fridge:
1) Four tubs of ice-cream
2) Some Yogurt
3) Few cartons of milk
4) Twiggies
5) Chips and honeystars
6) Sweeeetes & Chocolates
7...) Many more

Don't worry, I won't finish them up. I will not grow fat. & Jillian can be a successful comedian. Carolyn says that we should hire Jill to be the entertainer during parties cause she will really crack everyone up so much so that no one will stop laughing (Madeline almost fell off the chair). The "rubber lizard in the cereal" - I will not forget. Gooooood times :)

Who are you now? Are you still the same of did you change somehow.

I smell nice now cause I just showered. Okay I feel that I've alot of things to say. So today we had a talk from the Mind Champs team on examination strategies (how to cope/study smart). And I realised that foundation is the key to doing well in subjects like maths (which explains what I'm so bad at it). Much was reflected and learnt and words are just words so the only way it'll work is for me to apply it/put it in actions.

Went to watch the A'division Hockey Finals. It was really exciting. Especially the boys finals (which was a close fight). The way they run & dribble & pass & score put me in such great awe. & I looking at the skill level, I know that all that came from two words: hardwork & determination. So much memories came back and flooded my mind. Remember the things we do on the pitch, the painful & tiring trainings, mental-skills sessions and pre-match nervousness/tension. And especially B'division Finals last year and semi-finals & finale this year. Really, I'm missing the lovely pitch.

I dknw whether those memories will re-live cause we may be separated next year. But favourite girls, whatever decision you girls make, do it for the sake of your future. It's definitely gonna be a difficult/painstaking decision cause we're at the crossroad of our lives. Always know that beneathe all my 'whineings' of not wanting to be separted, I'll be supporting your choices. & I believe that our friendship will be long-lasting & will not be ruined by the paths we take. Actually I've been praying and weighing all the positives & negatives. So I've set my mind. I'm going for SAJC. Thank God for this beautiful four years that really changed me (who I am hates who I've been). If it's His heavenly plan from above, we'll be together (I'll keep my constant prayers). Okay sorry for the emo-talk. I feel like crying already, I really can't bear.

I realised something important today. There is NO such thing as I cannot make it or others are better than me. If others can do it, I'm sure I've the capability to do it too. Hardwork is really the key to success. I've been learning this tough lesson for many years. It's only this year that I came to have many encounters with the lesson of hardwork.

I can't help feeling wasted. But if yesterday didn't turn out the way you want it to be, always know that today is a new day! (Mrs Tan, this is for you!)

Above all my anxieties, sadness, fears, pain & insecurities, I know I've a glorious God. With Him, who shall I fear? I can just start crying now because of all the amazing things that had happened to someone so undeserving like me. Really, once you've experienced God's love & grace, you will be changed. It'd been mercy all the way.

A call to my Guilding Light (prayer)

Three hours of intensive chinese mass lecture was good (cleared my many doubts) but then again, I can't deny that it's boring. Am aiming for an A. Hur. The Microsoft Learning Gateway (MLG) training was quite boring (once again). We didn't do much and I haven't completed the surveys. At least we were allowed to surf the net cause the teacher was a newbie.

Okay now I've been surfing websites of JC(s) and I'm getting 'blurrer'. I do not understand some stuffs. So if we're allowed to apply for few Jc(s) then I think I'll apply for SAJC and maybe ACJC. The rest seems to be out for me. I'll be glad if I can get into an average one. Hopefully SAJC takes me (as "promised/told to be").

Okay, be constant in prayer(s) cause God works!
Eh bitchass (youknw who you're), I'm wondering why you haven't texted me. I've given you my number didn't I? I need to tell you something but I lost your number! Hurry la preeetty face. I'm gonna take a nap now :)

Tasting Thy grace & walking by faith

I went blog(s)-reading & it seems that many people (sec4s) have not done well for mids. Just calculated my L1R5 for my mids & I'm too ashamed to tell. So much for last minute work. I'm so disappointed with myself cause I know I can do so much better. I must buck up to get my As (which doesn't seem far cause I'm sure I can get it). If not even dsa won't be of help. The biggest problem (& worries) now lies with my maths. I'll be happy getting a B4/C5. I just gotta keep on praying bout it. Keep me in your prayers too okay?

Right now, I need to get my focus back cause my mind is broken into a million pieces in all different dimensions now. I can't think straight without worrying about something else.

Lord I long to see You Glorified, in everything I do.

One more promise I can't keep

I cut my hair today & I cooked miso soup. I'll upload the photos soon. It's amazing how I can be camwhoring while cooking. Nevermind, girls shall&will be girls. So I shall be me. Make sense?

School tomorrow & I haven't completed my chinese assignment. I'm looking forward to the holidays but not the chinese O's. Speaking of the hols. I wanna go tanning. I've become such a white(chick); is my favourite show. Who wanna go tanning with me? Anyhow, I'll race you beeeeeeach (Marissa).

There's no way out.

Bravest heart of mine

Tuition in church is looking good. Tution kid Issac scored an A1 for his maths (which means I'm a good tutor haha). But it's kinda contridicting cause I'm failing maths myself. Very badly & is so disappointing. Btw I'm gonna have another new kid next week. Thank God eh?

Just got home from shopping & my feets are dying :( I've blisters at the both side of my feets. & not forgetting the silly bruise (i injure myself, myself) that expended after rubbing. How painful. Anyhow, I bought my denim shorts so one thing off my shopping list.

The Div1 girls got in the Finals. Im so proud of the Div1 juniors. Pity we can't play cause of the O's. But excellent job. So everyone, be there to cheer them on. Next saturday, 27 May at Delta. Juniors, I'm so damn proud of you girls. Keep it up & get another Champs trophy yeah.

Anyway, Mrs Tan, I've bought The Little Prince book. Will be reading it tonight. & I want my birkenstock!!!

Just the way you look

Belated (Sexy) Sixteenth dinner celebration with the favourite girls at California Pizza Kitchen, Forum. Hmm we ordered three pizzas, two pastas & nine drinks. The serving was just right I feel. We managed to finish everything haha. Well, with girls like carolyn around who can really eat, why not? Okay and not forgetting the photos we took. Anyhow, the bill turned out to be quite cheap (much cheaper than expected).

Surprise, surprise! Hitomi, I hope you like the panties card (I painstakingly spent so much time pasting the pokka dots). & Marissa, I hope you like the boots (Red Hot 16th okay). I'm sorry if I actually spelt your name wrongly. I must have been too tired, don't make me feel so ashamed la.

Ber&Car wanna buy dunks/sneakers with me :) Sloth must be a grest sin, I took cab again. Shopping tomorrow & off to bed now lovely.

Running from the truth

"You chart the path ahead of me and tell me when to stop and rest. Every moment, you know where I am". Pslam 139:3

Hello regular blogfans (youknw who you're), God is good & constant & faithful! Today is marking day so there's no school :) Went for training (after almost two months missing in action) to help the c'girls prepare for their seven-aside tournament. & to find out how rusty (maybe noob-by according to carolyn) we all are now. I even lost my 'skill' of dodging (which I was best at) from the hourly pitch waterings and i can't believe I got wet. Hai, I think we look so bad on the pitch we don't even look like sec4s. How embaressing but quite fun actually.

Okay so tomorrow it's back to school to face the hard facts. & chinese intensive is starting. I seriously do not know how I'm gonna fare but for one thing I know is that I'm gonna fail my maths and it's again demoralising cause I put in the most or actually all of my time and effort. But well, I'm not giving up. I'm gonna be a fightstar.

Lotsa thanks to dearest Jennifer for the jar of birthday cookies. Not forgetting Shihui also for helping in the baking. Both of you are such sweeties and the cookies are yummy :D Extra good loving from me alright? <333

One thing I'm looking forward to is celebrating Hitomi, Marissa and my birthday (s) with the rest of the favourite girls tomorrow night. Made the stuffs and I hope Hit&Mar will like it. Haha my sister says I'm a pervert (so unlike). Anyway, it's gonna be fun (all the cam-whoring & laughings I'm sure).

I know that you like the way that I put it down on you

Hello dearest Marissa & also Madeline. Alright everyone, I'm now at Marissa's house with Madeline. Mar wanted me to add a new entry (cause she's dying to read) so yeah you can see I'm doing it now. Mad's like on the next computer next to me and so engrossed with The Sims (business). When I talk to her there's often no reply :(

Okay, so after school we came over to mar's and guess what? We decided to cook spaghetti. Actually I was the one who cooked it. Mad helped me with some onions chopping and the lazy host just decided to watch csi and pop by the kitchen during commercial breaks. Haha both of them were so hungry they finished all the spaghetti, which also means that it tastes delicious. The next time i shall cook ribena ribs (yummy). Then after eating we watched a stupid show and decided to get ice cream but the petrol kiosk was under renovation. Haha, so much for being embarrassed and walking in blouse, shorts and glitter slippers yeah, mar? Haha.

So when we got back, we saw this broken sliding arm chair with one leg broken. I sat on it but nothing happened. Then i stole mar's good chair and so she sat on the broken one. Suddenly, bombgbbombush. & we saw Mar on the floor. Guess what? Another leg broke and now we have left a three legged arm chair lying on the ground. Quite a funny scene. I can still laugh.

Anyway, Glory to God! Cause I see improvments in my english and chinese SA1 grades. Although it's not distinctions (B range), but i thank God for His grace to such an undeserving wretch like me. It's a great encouragement cause I predicted worser results. But like I always say, Rejoice in Hope because God is good & faithful all the time. & to those who've been interceding for me, thanks a lot and please continue praying. This is so my year to glorify God's name.

Ps: Jook just asked me to pray for him.

Banging for a second chance,

I just got home. Went to town with Diana to look for her clutch bag but we didn't find anything she like. Hey I found some nice new clothes I'm so gonna buy ( haha shall lose some weight first). Then we walked to forum cause Diana has appointment there. I was lazy so I took a cab home. The cab driver was uber, annoying. Really, talk so loud in such a rude tone like he wanna fight. I was damn pissed.

Really, I wouldn't like to comment nor agree with mere sterotypes, but the service standard is really bad. Damn right. While the government is trying to boost the standard, here we have rude asses who obviously do no give a damn bout their customers. Like hello, so what if I'm wearing my uniform and taking your cab? So what if youknw I'm just a student? I take your cab means I'm your customer. What makes me any less different/significant (as a customer) than a tourist or a tai-tai? Well, I define good service standards as treating all customers the same and with respect.

I've been taking so much of cabs lately, this is one of the worst & most intolerable drivers that really made me wanna complain so much. More like bad luck for me that I took your damn cab.

He will, she knows

This is really a random post. I don't know why I even wanna blog. I'm tired cause I slept really late last night. & to think that I blanked out on the Stalin question (which i spent most time on). Nevermind, just wanna say that history paper is omgosh and bio was okay except for how to digest protein and what's the function of pallisade and mesophyll cells? SIGH.

This is especailly for Marissa. Cause she walked pass my class and look at me with a puzzled face so I figure she wanted to know how my paper went. & I also wanna say that Jillian was shit high and gay (haha) for dknw what reason and made me laugh so much that disrupted my revision. & also Hitomi is the funniest cause she studys after the exam is over? Isn't that ultimate sillyness? These are my three favourite girls for you.

I'm such a vain-ass.

warm from the heart

& I gave up shopping today to study cause I'm fretting I've been lazy, playing & haven't studied my bio and history. I can't belive I'm not shopping when my mum is paying for it :( Nevermind, I decided that exams are more important than clothes.

Anyway, I just got back from church. Didn't join the main service but helped out in the Sunday School. The kids made sandwiches for their mummy(s). So I stayed around to help (afterall, the sandwich-making idea came from me). & really, those children are really gifts from heaven. They're so cuttttte, i dknw how to explain. The older children gets annoying at times cause they'll be running all around. But the little ones (below three yrs) are so damn cutttttte. I cannot describe but they really have my heart. Especially Tian En. He's my ultimate sweeeeetest cuttttttest super little boy.

I've been a bad girl lately. I'm so loving Kenny Rogers.

Books now.

Life's a fast ride & I'm on the front seat.

Hello. This entry is really for nothing cause my fingers are feeling fly. Anyway, I'm gonna make random shoutouts to those I miss.

Bernetta & Carolyn - Hello to the sisters, I really miss both of you. We haven't been talking much cause of the exams.

Madeline & Marissa - Sorry Mad, I can't make the time on both days. Exams'd really blown you away & i so miss you. Loyal blogfan of mine (Marissa), I bet you're reading this now. Don't grin & don't blush, but i'm missing you.

Majella - Hello sweetie. I'm gonna believe that you didn't forget me. I hope everything's well for you. Don't fret, just study hard and i know you'll make it. & you're not fat alright? However 'fat' you claimed you become, I will still love you as much. You shall date me cause i say you should. All the good loving from me.

Eleanor - BOO! Out out out when?

Hitomi & Jillian - Hey i don't really miss you two right now cause we just went shopping right. But seeee, your names are still mentioned. Haha. Okay, I do love you girls.

Btw, Kaijuen is in Singapore (for real) so I'm gonna bring him around later. Jillian! I really hope you can come, really. Tomorrow's a shopping day & i so can't wait.

Music: Lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking off her clothes - Panic! At the Disco.

After ss paper, was at Marina Square alone, then Suntec City with Hitomi, Jillian, Jorain, Rina, Valarie and Yingjie lunch at Kuishinbo, being nonsensical with the 'fake'(haha) green tea ice cream, the many fifty dollars photo. Then to the toy place with many machines. Those that you put one dollar and the toy will come out in a ball. Jorain was trying to get Stitch but every single creature came out except for Stitch. Seems like when you want something so much you somehow just can't really get it. We spent fourteen dollars on those ball things. And then to Hello Kitty and then being crazy taking photos with Doremon.

Then was Nike Bird store. There was new nice pink dunks. New balance and Hitomi bought shorts, Guess and we saw nice fruity handbag which looks good on Jillian, La Senza & the preeeetty thongs & cherry, pokkadots & ribbons bras, Ralph Lauren omg my preeeeetty $145 flower top, Topshirt and bought undies with Jill. Then to Marina Square again. Ms Selfridge where Jill fell in love with the huge vintage shades (too big for you la, Jill.), Topshop and Jill&I bought damn nice undies, Nike (again), Zara, Mango and really tired so we went home.

After so much shopping, youknw what? We burn lots of calories (according to Hitomi) and I'm so tempted to draw more money (my bank account is sizzling). Conclude: I feel so fat I'm gonna start my 'routine'. & worst of all, i'm beginning to be a greedy girl all over again.

Now on my new shopping list, i have:
1) Ralph Lauren flower top
2) Denim shorts
3) Sneakers/dunks
4) La Senza Cherry&Ribbon bra
5) Nike shirt
6) Perm my hair

Hey my birthday was just urm four days ago but it wouldn't be late if you wanna get me any of those mentioned above (tell me if you want) haha. So, I walked like for seven hours and I'm now tired. Tonight will be watching TV and good long sleep which I'm deprived of for the past days.

Anyway, i need some quiet time alone and also some with God, really. In the midst of everything good and bad, I seem to have lost myself. I need to find myself again before I go on studying properly during the June hols. Eh, don't worry this is not scary, I'm not on spell. Something is just missing, youknw those sort of feeling?

Last thing before i end, New Urban Male shopkeepers are seriously HOT.

chase you round the memories

This week'd been a horror. Seriously, even though only three days had passed, i feel like it'd been a long long time. I don't think i'm gonna do well and it's a letdown. Fwreeeeaking killer tough papers /: I dknw how i'm gonna last till next wednesday.

I've not been studying well ever since the mids started. All i think of is rest and sleep. Really need time to recharge before i start steadily again. I'm tired but i don't wanna lose the fight. I just hope God will fight this with me. I thank the many people who're interceding for me. And God is truly amazing, His words always comes so timely:

"Do not be afaird nor dismayed because of this great multitude, for the battle is not yours, but God's." 2 Chorinthians 20:15

I ate Macs today for the first time in close to a year. Good talking with Beatrice. I'm so gonna sleep immediately tomorrow the moment i get home. Friday is a holiday, like omg HURRAYYAY :)

& I just realise there're actually alot of May babies.

banging for a second chance

hello marissa! i just found out that you're my number 1 blog fan. i can't believe you're so loyal in reading my blog. or are you just waiting for juicy gossips (i don't gossipa anymore i think)? you're a funny girl.

okay my gossip topic for today: bernetta.

bernetta was walking pass my class after literature paper:
ber: hello! -gives a huge garfield smile
char: wth. you can still smile when you forgot about my birthday?
ber: oh no. i forgot. sorry sorry. -comes to "hug" me
char: go away la. i hate(haha) you! i hope you fail your physics.
ber: weeeeei. you curse me fail my physics.
then i laugh like crazy and ber ran away.

and being so sweet ber texted me after the phy paper. she said sorry she forgoten happy belated birthday and she promise she'll remember next year. she's sad that i "cursed" her to fail physics and she thinks she'll fail cause the paper was tough. then being soft-hearted, i said i was just kidding (haha). alright, ber! don't worrry, you won't fail and i love you more than ever! <3

weixuan and nikki were being sweethearts too. they gave me a lime-green birthday board. they said i was of legal age to have sex (omg). but anyhow, thanks sweeties :)

marissa, did i entertain you?

everyday i'm searching for

hello, so happy sixteenth birthday to myself :/ and i swear it isn't least bit of sweet :( i wonder why people say sixteen is sweet. sixteen is like a so wrong year, at least for me. i didn't go to church and i stayed at home (now) to study. anyway, gelare with carolyn last night was good. we were at gelare but funny thing was that we didn't eat waffles. hahah.

tsk i'm still waiting for bernetta, jillian, madeline and marissa's greetings. hur i will kill them if they ever forget. and it's sad i shall not complain cause many unexpected people remembered my birthday. people like old churchies, obs msia friends, hannah and even weiloong. thank you sweetest/most thoughtful juniors, xinni and bubu.

oh gosh, Mrs Tan is the sweeeeetest/cooooolest teacher you can ever get.

Mrs Tan's emailed me (i hope you don't mind me posting):

OHHHHHHHHHHHHH MYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY GOOOOOOOOOOOODnessssssssssssssssssssssssssssss!!!! I am chatting with a birthday girlie???????????????????? oooooooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhh MANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN....

Happy 16th Birthday Sweetie!!!!!!!!! first is 16th....then 18th....then 21st....then....you don't wish to count anymore :) hehehee.

Enjoy your 16th year as its once in a lifetime.
Every year will have its own sweetness, its own challenges.
Live each day so that you'll never regret,
and never wish you would want to relive it again...

Have the greatest day today.....you can celebrate your big day with PAP's victory at the elections :) How are you going to spend your day?

do you know that a secret????????
the secret is...
Everyday is my birthday :)
That's how i wanna live my life.

God bless you abundantly Charisa! HUGS.


btw, nikki, if you're reading this, please email mrs tan the hockey shirt designs asap (now) alright? cause she's meeting the tshirt man tmrw. and the money for the birks tomorrow yeah. thanks girl.

okay, i shall count my blessings :) i wanna parrrrrty but i'm gonna study now. Blessed, everyone.

living for a cause

i don't want to be different, but i am just different.

i was fretting through chinese paper 2. i've never done such a difficult chinese paper, never. paper 1 was managable. oh no paper 2 was screwed. and i just realised today's chinese paper was actually the chinese prelims. hur thanks jill&hit for telling me. but well, prelim is just a 'big' word. i guess it won't affect our first three months intake since our actual chinese results (first try) be come way before our prelims. i hope i can make it in the first try. don't wanna waste my time retaking.

i just can't keep my disappointment. each day i think back. i get more bitter. seems like the whole world was a beautiful lie, or was it all along an ugly truth i'd been too naive to notice. now that's left with six friends bercarolhitjillmadmar i'm not disappointed with. and really, i Praise God for the six. i'll keep them close. meanwhile, i can't wait to leave this superficial hellhole. i can't wait longer.

this is a rough and critical phase of life. each day i tell myself i'm living for a cause. i'm painfully different, living to glorify God's name. Jesus, everyday when i feel my world falling, i just wanna quieten down and live each second for You.

it's friday and i'm lovinnnnng <3
alright goodbye, i shall start studying now :(

Yielding to the Supernatural guildance of God
yields Supernatural results authored by God

maths was unexpected. i never thought that locus and cumulative-graph would be tested for paper 1. but you see, in life, least expected things happens. anyway, it wasn't a difficult paper but i think i will still fail. not horribly but slightly. but i'm glad cause i feel there's already improvenments (considering my maths is how poor), and best of all, maths paper 1, is so damn over.

period.

in a world of lies, You are the truth

marissa says i blog everyday and she's reading my blog now, so hello favourite girl :) but sorry mar, you're not the star today.

the star of the day is TOASTER FELICIA SOH.
Happy Fifteenth Birthday, Love. girl, how've you grown! you've been a great junior for the past two years and counting third. bdiv was a bliss with you. thanks for all your encouragements alright? i promise i'll continue to be there to give you advice as long as i live. okay okay, shopping and nightout soon, i promise. my wish for you is priceless: to grow preeeeettier each day :D

maths paper tomorrow and i'm kinda freaked. it's my weakest and most dreaded subject. well i guess i've done my part in practicing (very hard) last year's work so i'll just do my Best and let God decide how i'll fare. afterall, only God can create miracles and hope for me. plus i'm gonna keep my little faith cause i've already commited my studies to God and i told him wanna study hard not just for myself, but to share a part of my life with others when i grow up, and most importantly; to Glorify His Name.

to all mugging now (esp those doing last minute revisions), don't mugg the books. study smart. Blessings to all :)

nevermind what people say

practical was okay. quite easy but i dknw whether the cation is ammonium, aluminium or lead II. i hope it's ammonium cause i wrote that. btw, jennifer said her buns didn't drop haha (so lucky).

other than running the race of revision, life is a standstill. i miss my hockey girls. seems like after the season ended, we're all busy with our schoolwork and stuff. at least i get to see hitomi and jillian in literature class, madeline in history class and marissa in chinese class. but i get to see so little of carolyn and bernetta. like only during recesses and don't have much time to talk.

said bye to berneta and left for school, so i texted her:
Charisa: bye bernetta. i miss you alot okay. hope to see you more in the mornings and recesses. love you, favourite girl :)
Bernetta: haha. i will try to come early tomorrow. ok. haha. i miss the morning school talks with u all. hope it dun rain tomorrow.

why she talk about raining? we can still talk somewhere else if it rains. haha bernetta is random. but seriously i hope we'll have more time with each other. exams are officially starting in two days. o'level confirmation slips are out. the stress is raining down. i'm pmsing. i'm growing fat. how bad can this get?