hello! im finally blogging now. anw, i think tagboard is down or something, cos everyone's tagboard can't be seen. so sad. haha. nevermind.

i dunno what im doing here, but i think it'll be quite some time before i'll blog, cos the eoys are in just three weeks time. mmm. not actually, cos it was suppose to be two weeks more, but it was extended to a week more, so tht we have more time.

anyway, the english paper is at the end of this month. so i better stop coming online. anw, i see lesser people online and lesser students in shopping malls everyday. haha. guess, everyone is trying to mugg for the eoys.

alright. thts about all. nights world! (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARIA! (:

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to MARIA
happy birthday to you! yay!

hello dear, i didnt want to blog, but since its your birthday today, i shall dedicate this post to you. hope tht you had a happy day today, though there was school, and the eoys are just arnd the corner, but i just hope tht your day was great. anw, stay as nice and cute although ure a year older already. and study hard for the coming eoys alright. takecare. iloveyoubaby! (:

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your grace was found so deep within me, i call it amazing grace

dido ; here with me

i didnt hear you leave
i wonder how am i still here
and i dont want to move a thing
it might change my memory

chorus*
oh i am what i am
i'll do what want
but i cant hide
i wont go
i wont sleep
i cant breathe
until you're resting here with me
i wont leave
i can't hide
i cannot be
until you're resting here with me

i don't want to call my friends
they might wake me from this dream
and i can't leave this bed
risk forgetting all that's been

chorus*

i want to make you feel beautiful ;

hello. just got home frm church and tuition. tuition was fun, cos everyone stayed behind in church to study and accompany me. haha. so nice right. tuition was okay la. quite slack though, but who cares. haha. i like it better like tht.

i didnt eat anything frm morning till dinner, but im feeling so bloated, i dunno why. screw my digestive system la. its like, just too weak. so annoying. i better go and see a doctor soon. aiya. i think i'll be alright if i dont eat anymore laxatives.

school is re-opening tomorrow. and tht means, the eoys are coming soon. eoys are extended till a week longer, and it means tht we've got one full month before the actual eoys. one month. its alot of things to catch up and study within this short period of time.

so many things, so little time. ohwell :(

anw, thts abt it la. nights world.

to me, you are perfect.

i knew that you were mine, when i saw you.

hello. i just came home from town. went to school this morning, and was late for oral exams. english orals was okay. not too bad, just tht the descriptive picture part was a little confusing, and i think i just screwed it up. but miss koh kept on laughing throughout our conversation. so i think its a good sign. well, i hope so.

okay. im bored, so i shall blog abt the malaysia trip. anw, i heard tht crescent went to malaysia to train too and i was wondering why we didnt bump into them. and i heard frm polly tht they went to tioman. okay. thts why we didnt have fate to bump into each other. haha.

accomodation was okay. the hotel was quite okay, shall not complain too much, but i think its really freaky. i dunno why, but i cried whn i was in my first allocated room, so i switched room with nicolette and others. shared room with brenda, hitomi and madeline, but madeline left on the second day, and hitomi left on the third day, so bernetta came to join us on the second day.

trainings was like, super uber tiring. we ran alot, played two sides with each other, and we also played with the johor hockey girls. we learnt some new drills and positional plays as well, and so it was really tiring, and we were aching all over after the second day. mr bulb screamed and scolded us like some mad man, as usual, but i think he's really a nice guy off the pitch. he's a cute little old guy. haha.

oh, and we went swimming at the hotel too. the pool water was cool, and everyone was freezing, but i think it was so fun, soaking in the pool after trng, and playing with the water. haha. its really fun and funny.

mr tan gave us a treat tht he owes us, at some small resturant there. oh, and i think the malay or indian burgers, mmm, i think its malay burgers, the food at the roadside stalls and the dukins donuts. haha. they're all so delicious, and i mean, really nice and super yummy!

yupp. thts abt all tht've happened.
theresian hockey, rock on! yay! (:

i just watched the mtv of, maroon five; she will be loved. i think its quite sad, but still sweet. haha. go watch it!

so there. bye world.

even though, i know i would lose a chance with you.

in the end, i wanna be standing at the beginning with you.

hello everyone. im back frm training camp in malaysia. im really really very tired, but this trip has really motivated me to go further, and train harder. well done everyone, you girls trained really hard. continue to keep up with all tht we've learnt. im tired, so i wont blog abt the details today. yupp.

many many things had happened, both good and bad, i dont wish to mention them, and i think my patience is really running dry. i know tht ive made mistakes, and had alot of short-comings, and sorry if ive done anything wrong. i dont know what to say, but so what if im not your perfect girl. so what. im just what i am.

enough said, and lets remember what mr bulb said during de-brief today ;
believe in ourselves and train hard, nothing is impossible. the sky is the limit. we can do it.

anw, there's english oral exam tomorrow. sigh. im so tired, and im losing my voice, i dont know how im going to take the exam properly. just pray tht im okay tomorrow.

yupp. thts abt all. takecare alright. i miss you. much loves! (:

` girl with the broken smile

hey. im tired, and very tired. and the worst thing is, im bored. and no one is talking to me, for one reason or other. they're either out, or busy or whatsoever not. and this is so annoying.

anw, im leaving for malaysia tomorrow to train, frm monday to thursday, and tht means, half of my hols will be spent in malaysia training. and im not really looking forward to it, cos im still having diarhoea. and i dont feel like training, plus i think mr bulb will be torturing us. but i know it'll be fun, no matter what (:

okay. thts abt it. i wont be online for four days, and i'll be back on thurs night. ive got auto roaming, so you can still drop me a msg or smth. so there. takecare alright. loves! (:

`dream a little; dream of me.

they think im a happy, fourteen year old girl, but they dont see how lost i am in this world. everyone is hiding who they truly are, but just remember that lies will never take you far :(

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why is everyone is hiding who they truly are.

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`its not easy to be me \

im going out soon. i dunno what im blogging, but as you can see, im just too bored. okay. eh, im going to ps later to buy some stuffs, and eh, adeline ansd leilani is going with me. eh, adeline is meeting me first, and leilani might be late. ohwell. i got nothing to say anymore. i know this is lame, but so what. laters! (:

wish that i could cry; fall upon my knees

im home early today, cos i went to see a doctor and i didnt go for trng. my tummy still hurts now. i dont know what and why im doing this to harm myself, but so what, i'll better be off dead or somewhere else. this world is getting so complicated, and im really getting tired. im tired and im too tired of this world.

ive got a sad life, but so what.

and i cant stand my hair anymore. its getting longer and longer. ohwell. i might just go and cut some of them off. its so annoying.

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shenevie wong ;
i dunno why am i dedicating another post just especially for you, but i really cant take your nonsense anymore. anw, shenevie wong is you. dont have to doubt whether im mentioning you. yes, its you. oh, ive got smth important to ask you. why didnt you come to school today? all of us miss you so much you know. we so wanted to see your clown face. haha. and what are you saying behind our backs now? dont think tht no one knows. we all know everything okay. since you think tht we framed you, then i ask you this agn; why didnt you stand up for your rights in front of mrs low whn we were all there ystd? if you think tht ure really right, and we were accusing you of doing smth wrong, then i dont see why you dont have the courage to say tht you were right. why do you have to wait till you get home, and tell it to others? and may i ask you, who were the extras standing there and talking to mrs low, together with me? and did i blow up the whole matter? even if i did, am i wrong? and let me tell you smth, i didnt blow up the matter okay. it wasnt a small matter, neither was it a big matter. i really dont wished to bring tht up to mrs low, but ive got no choice. you forced me to. cos since your ego is so high, and you wouldnt want to admit tht ure in the wrong, then too bad. the sadest thing is, until now, you still think tht ure right, and we're all wrong. ohwell, think whatever you want la. if this is the way you want it, then pls dont ever dream of us forgiving you, cos you dont even want to admit your mistakes. ure so incorrigible, and you simply disgusts me. our world doesnt welcome losers like you. get a life and go away!

i shall not mention anymore things. the more i think of it, the more i boils up. sigh. anw, i need someone to accompany me to shopping, to buy the stuffs, cos im leaving for malaysia to train next monday. mmm.

so there. laters! (:

dream a hundred thousand dreams before, now i finally realised \

school was horrible. but at least we got to clarify all our conflicts and everything. it isnt really solved yet, but more or less, we know now who's the bad and good girl.

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shenevie wong ;
im not trying to be mean abt what im gonna say here. if you dont want to see it, then pls close this window. but if you really want to know what all of us feels abt you, then pls continue reading. i know tht it'll hurt reading this, but no offence to what im saying okay, but this is really what we think. its really amazing how well you can act. you really amuses me. you act like ure so innocent, sometimes, its really difficult for us to tell whether ure telling the truth or not. and ure still telling others, tht we misunderstood you, whn you yourself, willingly admitted tht you did everything we mentioned just now. and if we really wronged you, why didnt you speak up whn mrs low was asking you if you did them? how great your lies can get? and this is so funny. how can i introduce you a guy whom i dont even know, to you. pls dont use my name whenever you like okay. its annoying. you betrayed, back-stabbed and bitched abt so many of us. ure just trying to mess up our lives, and break all of us up. oh, so you think what? its fun doing all these, breaking all of us up? i say, no. ure just annoying and disgusting. you seem like a clown. you have so many different faces, and they're all disgusting. the worst thing is, you dont even have the guts to admit what uve done. if dare to do so many means things, why dont you have the slightest courage to admit them. ure just a coward. you admitted tht ure a bitch, but you know what, i think ure worst then a bitch. ure a fugly slut. i still dont understand why ure doing all these. i dont see what you gain in the end. you only make everyone detest you. dont blame anyone for you plight now. you deserve it. anw, no one will pity you now. and i really mean, no one. just go get a live and go away! oh, and pls remember this; if you want to play bitchy, i'll play it back to you. so, go away now! :(

i'll be off to malaysia to train during the hols, anw. we're going frm monday to thursday. mmm. so four days of my sept hols will be in malaysia trng. haha. i dunno why, but im looking forward to the trng trip. although i'll be missing many things, and you.

and speaking of you, i miss you so much. ohwells.

anw, we still deciding where we shld go next saturday after english orals. anyone can just come along la okay. and pls give me some nice suggestions!:)

yup. thts abt all la. takecare alright. loves! (:

just know tht lies dont get you anywhere`

hello. maths tuition just ended. and im so tired :(

anw, went to town with leilani and adeline just now. we went to coca for steamboat. haha. it was quite fun and so funny. and we were quite full after eating. then we were walking arnd aimlessly. i wanted to buy a top for the past few days, but didnt really see any tht i like.


oh, except maybe for a polo ralph lauren top, and a pink mago skirt. but i havent bought any of them anw.

oh, i almost forgot smth. we went to coffee bean, and we were looking at people walking arnd, and we were trying to identify those taitais. haha. and i found out smth. you can see lots of people, just by sitting in coffee bean. cos, we so coincidentally saw mrs low and her husband. she was clinging to his arm. how sweet (:

and i found out smth more abt ;
fugly slut.

sigh. i shall just stop here. ive got some important things to settle. yup. takecare ya. loves! (:

\ its not easy to be me.