Lord, please grant me your peace to move on, i need your mercy and grace.

hey. i fell asleep at five in the morning and woke up at seven. sigh i'm really deprived of sleep these days. anyhows, i had a really wierd dream last night. i dreamt of one of my friend becoming a dog, and then the dog(my friend) became my pet. okay i know this is dumb, but i can have really the most crazy and stupid dreams i never can understand sometimes. nevermind i'm not going to reveal who my dog friend is anyway. HAHA.

i know i don't have the right to judge others, cos i can't even judge myself the way God actually judge me, i hate to judge too, but sometimes i just can't help it. i don't know whats the right way of putting it across, but how about putting it this way; i don't exactly know the way to judge others, cos i'm also judged by God. but sometimes, situations and circumstances just forced me to do that. my tolerance level is reaching its highest point, i've been tolerating with so many shits and craps from everyone, everything is pushing me, i can't take this anymore. i'm breaking down.

i think i'm crazy i'm on some super crazy dieting plan, i'm taking a less then 300 calories intake everyday, fasting for two days a week, training and exercising on my own and some other thing which is speeding up everything. yes i'm losing weight, but i'm afraid i can't take this anymore. i always get mental block and i try to escape from everything by sleeping. anyway, i don't even think i need to lose weight. i just don't know what i'm doing to myself. sigh. Lord, please forgive me.

and don't push it, i'm reaching the end.