friday nights and the lights are low
looking out for the place to go
night is young and the music's high

it's friday night and i just came home from studying at somewhere nice and rather peaceful. and i met up with weiting. wait, i waited almost two hours for her okay. ohwell, i wonder what i'm doing. it's rare that i'm home this early on a friday night. but the damn mid years are in two weeks time and i need to do well desperately, so i shall not complain.

the worst things about exams is that it stretches to two over weeks. and by the time it ends, it'll be this time of the month again in may. which is still one whole month from now. why can't they just slot the subjects with two papers into one day? it's like making it seem so long. and yes, i hate it.

yes, i'm feeling damn depress recently. mid-years are coming, friends problems, granddad's hospitalised, getting scolded everyday at home, super moodswing and pmsy and the worst thing is, i'm getting baptised and i think i don't deserve to, cause i've drifted so much from God. i just feel as though i can't stay at home. i feel so condemned by the world. i'm sick and tired. so don't ask me why, just leave me alone, all of you. it'll do me alot better then all of you pestering me and asking me if i'm alright. thanks for the concern, but i really need the quiet. and i tell you now, i'm not okay. so leave me alone. please. please.

if my life is for rent and i don't learn how to buy
i deserve nothing more than i get
cause nothing i have is truly mine