sigh. i think i should be fine. i was going through some terrible and maybe the most difficult phrase of my life till now, the last few days. bad tummy upset and really disgusting results. anw, thanks to those who were concerned. i'm fine and i think i should be able to pull through this. i'm strong, remember? and i think i've came to my final decision. i want to appeal to retain sec2 next year, cause i don't want to promote to sec3 express and get the terrible subj combination. anw, thank God that my parents and family are supportive of me retaining. at least i still have them even if the whole world looks down on me. i'll most probably be promoted and i dunno if its possible for me to retain, but i want to retain. okay i know i sound stupid saying this, but it really wasn't a easy decision to make and its easier said then done. its too late to regret now. yes i would waste one year, but i think i rather waste one year then waste my whole life just because of my failure this time. i don't care about what others will think of me after i retain, but i'm doing this for myself and i want to study sec2 all over again. i'm sick of town, i'm sick of money, i'm sick of all the material stuffs, i'm sick of this world. i'm already over all those. all i want to concentrate doing is, study. sigh. people, just pray for me.

ele and hannah: thanks alright? i should be okay, i guess. takecare too. i miss my BOO and my hannah. see you two sweets soon alright. i'm missing you more each day. -hugs :)