angels come and adore you, and we your children worship you

hello. it has been a really long time since i last blogged. and i just realised that my blog is quite dead these days, especially when i don't blog and no one logs on to look at it, cos there's nothing new to read. that is why, im finally blogging now.

so many things have happened these few weeks, good and bad, happy and sad. but all in all, i really thank God for bringing me through all my problems and trails.

anw, the good thing is that, the english paper is over. so that means i can put aside on subject and focus on the rest. i could have felt that i've just put down a burden when the english exam was over. haha. such a good feeling.

i feel really small these days. life'd been so busy these days. so much so that i've been caught up with my own stuffs and even things of the world. the things of this world seem to be really alluring, and even hypnotising sometimes, i say hypnotising because, sometimes, i get really too caught up with those things i see in fashion mags, advertisments, in shopping malls, in town and actually everywhere.

its quite scary sometimes, when i think of it. this world is going into a worser state everyday, more things are created, means more sins are made too. but all the things of this world are of sins, not of the Father, and they will never be.

yes, of cos i know that. but its easier said then actually done. i've been in a bad state nowadays. i know i've neglected God, and i know that i've been treating Him as my part-time friend. when i'm in need, i'll go to him and beg him for help, but when my life seem to be taking off well, i forget all about this God, of whom without Him, i wouldn't have been what i am now. i owed it all to you, God.

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Lord, i know i've been a worldly-being these days. i haven't been a holy-being, what you wanted me to be. i know i've disappointed you in so many ways, but Lord, there's really so much i wanted to do, so much i wanted to stop myself from falling into temptations again and again, but so much is easily said then done. Lord, my faith is weak, and i know you know it, you know how i'm made, you know that i'm dust. sometimes i really want to come to you and confess all my sins and wrong-doings. but at times, i'm even too guilty to face you, for you've given me so many chances to repent, but yet, i've chosen the easier way out. and i've been sinning against you. Lord, i know that so much that you hate sins, but you still love me. Lord, i want to walk the narrow way. i know that it'll never be easy, but Lord, i know that i'm walking this walk with you, and i know with you, nothing will be too difficult. because Lord, you've already overcome all sins, and the price you paid for us on the cross, bearing all our sins and shame, was because of your love and your amazing grace. i might not be able to understand your love for sinners like me, but Lord, i know that, in love, you came. thank you for your nail pierced hands, your love, your forgiveness that washed my sins, still cleansing, still flowing. thank you, Lord. i want to be the child you want me to be, not of what the world wants me to be. because Lord, i know that i'm living, not for myself, but for you, Lord. and i know that no matter what, Lord, you will never forske me. Lord, forgive me of my sins, renew me, and keep me strong in faith. Lord, i want to try and be the child you want me to be. i want to be living for you, i want a break-through in my life, i want you shine for you. use me for your glory Lord, cause Lord, you're my everything, my Lord, my Saviour, my world.

Jesus, You're the lover of my soul. i'm falling deeper in love with You each day, cause You've taken me from the start and even though my world may fall, You'll never let me go. My Saviour, my closest friend, I will worship You until the very end.

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You are My World ; Hillsong

My father, i adore you more than anything my heart could wish for
I just want you
And Jesus, my beloved Saviour everything I have, I owe to you
I owe it all to you

And angels come and adore you
And we, your children worship you

You are my world, you are my God
And I lay down my life for You
You are my Lord, the one I love
No one could ever take your place

And everything I have I give to You, my Lord the one I live for
I live for You
And all my days are gifts from You, I pray I'd use them as You want me to
Use them for You