Forgive me my weakness cause I don't know why

Little books/things can get me thinking & reflecting, unless of course they are pitiful emo-arousing stories or painful sights/experiences of over-comers. Lately did I realise that history has that sort of power it gets me thinking. I think, why did the many war(s) happen, what so strong could arouse hatred that can make men torture, rape & kill? Really, something must be strong enough to make them do gruesome things like that.

History is bitter. I think it all started with different idealogies, greediness & selfishnes of men that resulted in that great hatred & then slowly pain & death(s). I would never want to live a day of such horror. Both shame & regret (not me!) to look back on the past wrongs. I think history is wasted (maybe except the fact that hopefully we learn from it).

Now I watch the news everyday & I think we (people in Sg) should really just count our blessings (I'm not trying to promote National pride or whatsover even though National Day is coming hur). Everyday in news, we see many countries suffering from natural disasters, poverty & broken up families (even divided countries). Then here we have so much comfort maybe too much which made us too full (too much food), we start to complain. Complain bout the heat but hello, I think compared to those countries suffering from floods, hurrincane & earthquakes, we'd better shut up. Oh so much glorious food we suffer from over-nourishment (hmm never got a taste of poverty) & in some sad cases ended up getting cancers. All have a roof over our heads but we still complain that we don't have a spacious enough house, a only small car to drive. Sometimes I think we're so pampered we deserve to be slapped (or rather shot). Actually I think we paid (in a way) for our blessings. We 'exchanged' raw materials (cause we're without) with good climate & no earth-shaking natural disasters (so far). Worthy 'exchange', if you think the same way cause we're without raw materials but yet we seem to be prospering at a good rate. I think I'm making some sense here (this is to those who're not senseless/****** who think all great bout their small self), right?

Such Shame (on ourselves).

Sorry, my mind'd been wild lately, thinking of really wierd things. My all-long (sorry no such words but i hope you get my drift) ambition even changed! I wonder why am I talking bout wierd things which I hope they somehow link. I bet no one at sixteen will have such wierd thoughts. Meaning I'm wierd (or becoming)?

Anyhow, soccerooos, I'm back. Goody news Germany & England will not meet any soon. I know this news is too late cause I was too sleepy to show my happiness here after watching the England game till 5am. & I didn't come online yesterday so forgive me. But as an England fan (maybe), I should somewhat rejoice I guess. England's not exactly performing superbly well (letdown sometimes) but I think they have the potential. Just that their strikers never seem to score (most of the goals are coming from the midfield). Like the goal Joe Cole scored & Gerrard is still the best man. So sad Owen is injured & out for five(!!) months :( Btw cheer for Japan (vs Brazil) at 3am, pray for underdog luck yeah.