Who are you now? Are you still the same of did you change somehow.

I smell nice now cause I just showered. Okay I feel that I've alot of things to say. So today we had a talk from the Mind Champs team on examination strategies (how to cope/study smart). And I realised that foundation is the key to doing well in subjects like maths (which explains what I'm so bad at it). Much was reflected and learnt and words are just words so the only way it'll work is for me to apply it/put it in actions.

Went to watch the A'division Hockey Finals. It was really exciting. Especially the boys finals (which was a close fight). The way they run & dribble & pass & score put me in such great awe. & I looking at the skill level, I know that all that came from two words: hardwork & determination. So much memories came back and flooded my mind. Remember the things we do on the pitch, the painful & tiring trainings, mental-skills sessions and pre-match nervousness/tension. And especially B'division Finals last year and semi-finals & finale this year. Really, I'm missing the lovely pitch.

I dknw whether those memories will re-live cause we may be separated next year. But favourite girls, whatever decision you girls make, do it for the sake of your future. It's definitely gonna be a difficult/painstaking decision cause we're at the crossroad of our lives. Always know that beneathe all my 'whineings' of not wanting to be separted, I'll be supporting your choices. & I believe that our friendship will be long-lasting & will not be ruined by the paths we take. Actually I've been praying and weighing all the positives & negatives. So I've set my mind. I'm going for SAJC. Thank God for this beautiful four years that really changed me (who I am hates who I've been). If it's His heavenly plan from above, we'll be together (I'll keep my constant prayers). Okay sorry for the emo-talk. I feel like crying already, I really can't bear.

I realised something important today. There is NO such thing as I cannot make it or others are better than me. If others can do it, I'm sure I've the capability to do it too. Hardwork is really the key to success. I've been learning this tough lesson for many years. It's only this year that I came to have many encounters with the lesson of hardwork.

I can't help feeling wasted. But if yesterday didn't turn out the way you want it to be, always know that today is a new day! (Mrs Tan, this is for you!)

Above all my anxieties, sadness, fears, pain & insecurities, I know I've a glorious God. With Him, who shall I fear? I can just start crying now because of all the amazing things that had happened to someone so undeserving like me. Really, once you've experienced God's love & grace, you will be changed. It'd been mercy all the way.