living for a cause

i don't want to be different, but i am just different.

i was fretting through chinese paper 2. i've never done such a difficult chinese paper, never. paper 1 was managable. oh no paper 2 was screwed. and i just realised today's chinese paper was actually the chinese prelims. hur thanks jill&hit for telling me. but well, prelim is just a 'big' word. i guess it won't affect our first three months intake since our actual chinese results (first try) be come way before our prelims. i hope i can make it in the first try. don't wanna waste my time retaking.

i just can't keep my disappointment. each day i think back. i get more bitter. seems like the whole world was a beautiful lie, or was it all along an ugly truth i'd been too naive to notice. now that's left with six friends bercarolhitjillmadmar i'm not disappointed with. and really, i Praise God for the six. i'll keep them close. meanwhile, i can't wait to leave this superficial hellhole. i can't wait longer.

this is a rough and critical phase of life. each day i tell myself i'm living for a cause. i'm painfully different, living to glorify God's name. Jesus, everyday when i feel my world falling, i just wanna quieten down and live each second for You.

it's friday and i'm lovinnnnng <3
alright goodbye, i shall start studying now :(