learn

when i was young and naive, my daddy stuck a poster on my wall. it goes like this:

when you make a mistake, there are only three things you can do about it -1. ADMIT IT
2. LEARN FROM IT &
3. DON'T REPEAT IT

right now, i can't explain the bitterness. i dknw how to put my words but i'll say it in the nicest way possible. i'm really disappointed with the lost. but i really did gave everything i have, my best and i've no regrets. that was the only reason why i walked out of the pitch, satisfied with myself, knowing that i gave my best.

and then today i woke up sick and i missed school. as i lie in bed, i thought of the game and the conversation with carolyn, and started to feel so bitter. if everyone gave their best and we lost, i would be so damn proud because we've reached our limits and there was nothing more we can give. the seniors watching the game saw that some of us didn't play our best and they even felt that some of us gave up (esp during second-half). some of us felt so too. was it true? only youknw if you've given your best and if you did, i don't see why we shouldn't be proud of ourselves or at least yourself. i don't agree that we were less worth of winning than st nicks yesterday because we trained so hard and are just so close to where we wanna be. most importantly, it wasn't the team's ultimate best. we could have played much better. don't you all agree?

i'm sorry but as part of the team, i really feel the need to say this. and really, i'm not trying to sound like i played damn well yesterday and the lost wasn't my fault. i made mistakes too but i did must best to cover for them. we're a team and we bear all consequences together. if you feel that i said anything wrong or offensive, please don't get angry or offended. tell me cause i'm not trying to put anyone down but i'm trying to get across the point that if it's true that anyone of us didn't give our best yesterday or maybe given up towards the end, we must learn from the lesson which we paid a high price. as long as we pick ourselves up and learn from this valuable lesson, we'll always be the dream team. you girls will always be the best team that deserve the most respect and love in my heart.

but, chin up girls. the overall performance yesterday was good. we managed to hold the score 1-0 throughout the game and the goal was only scored through an unlucky penalty. build yourselves up for the next game. we must play like we're playing in the finals. tell yourselves that we're not gonna settle for anything less and so we gotta fight hard till the end. tell yourselves it is a must win and it'll drive you to play the best of you. lets play like how we played against uwc in the under21 finals. last game, give it our best and enjoy the precious memory. we can do it. the confidence and pride of the team - get it back.