sorry i can't be perfect

sometimes i can't help wonder what's the perfect reason of life. life is so tough with so much ups & downs & it's just too unpredictable. you never know when something will happen & take your life away. our lives are in God's hands. i mean we all gotta die & leave this world. it's just whether or not we get to 'experience' life on earth. well, it's important cause if i wasn't born to this earth, i would have missed out on alot. all the wonderful people i've met & known, all the fun play & shopping. & not forgetting, the experience of God's manifestation of His great love, grace & mercy.

& the thing with human being is that we always tend to compare what we have with others. even our life, the quality of life, the things happening in others' life & we somewhat never seem to be satisfied with our own life. we always feel that others have a better life than us, like the grass is always greener on the other side, but hey. it's as difficult, if not even more difficult to cut.

yeah you can't chose how you look which family you're born in but you got a choice how you wanna shape your life. so now we all gotta learn to look at the positive side of life. i gotta learn too. life's more than just all the material comfort. much much more than that. i don't care what people say, it's alright cause jackass i can't make everyone happy. i'll just do the right thing even if it doesn't fit the world. i should learn to appreciate things & people around me more & whine less. that'll do me alot of good. & study hard for next year. that's the first piority as for now. yeah i'll go be a good girl & study.

wait, shopping tmrw first. haha.