temptation

i love you endlessly
but when it comes to me
you don't even notice me

hate it or love it, the holidays have officially started. that's not a very bad thing though. i can get some time off busy school days & for the least, catch more beauty sleep. this holiday schedule is duper packed. i have the obs lumut trip & the malaysia hockey tour. & about four trainings per week, plus the occasional club trainings, it would amount to five or more everyweek. & did i mention that most trainings are three hours. i have some extra classes in school to prepare for o'levels next year. this holiday would be busy busy busy but i think fun fun fun too.

a long holiday means that there would be many temptations. too much time & space for temptations. well, i know it before it even comes. temptations leads to sin. church sermon today was on how Jesus overcome the three temptations and how we could use Jesus as an example to resist & overcome temptations. it's to have God's words deeply engraved in our hearts & not to feed the temptation. it sounds easy, but it's not easy at all. the holidays just started & there're already so many temptations. i'm afriad, i really am. i hate being put to such tests. & i know it's cause my faith is really weak & i feel like i'm in such a dilemma. God, help me.

tomorrow's halloween party. eh weiting i feel that there's still so many things undone. the drinks thing is not confirmed. you need to tell me if i'm supposed to get them early. & you please hitch me a call if you read this tonight. call me anytime tonight. i'm waiting.

early HAPPY HALLOWEEN, people.
much fun & love to you sweethearts.