pain stained

parents always think they're right. yes, i agree that most of the time they're right. but when it comes to understanding their child's feelings, they seem so numb and ignorant. they could only feel how angry at that moment and in the end apologise. but if sorry could save everything, then the world would be a much much much happier and wonderful place to live in. what you inflicted was souldeep. you almost killed my inside. do you know how it hurts? would you understand? obviously you don't. i detest you. go away monsters.

school was okay. results flatuated like crazy. improved in some and de-proved in the others. sigh. this is getting serious. i better start bucking up and i'm starting to revise for my eoys. i need to do well for eoys desperately, if not, i'll have a tough time getting through in sec4 next year. do well. yes desperately.

we were supposed to introduce hockey to the japan girls after school, but they weren't interested. and ms martens told us that they'd enough runners so we won't have any duty anymore. so we ended up taking nonsense photos with the seniors. and i will miss the seniors so after the graduate this year! study doubly hard and all the best for prelims and O's, seniors!

i most probably can't go to obs lumut anymore cause i'll have to hand in the form two weeks late because of my ankle checkup and i'm quite sure leslie wouldn't want the whole thing to be delayed cause of me. and for the goodwill of my ankle, excuse me. i will sacrificed the lumut trip. but at least i'll still get to train when they're away.

enough of the sad and dis-heartening stuffs. now something happier. i bought my hockey jersey already and i got the number i wanted. eight. actually i wanted nine, but i gave it up for hanwei. i tell you ah, the new jersey and especially the skirt is urm, sexy? haha even ms martens can't stop saying it's sexy. sexy.

anyway, yesterday, today and this whole week is certainly not my week. i feel the world crashing down on me. Lord, where're you? i need your grace.