Take my broken-ness, call me to your side

Chinese Oral was a horror. I think I should not be elaborating. Recieved a call to be down at Sajc next wednesday for an interview. I wonder if it's a good/bad news. Don't really know what to expect too. I must to buy the Joy Luck Club guide book this week. I wanna sleep but I'm afraid I won't wake up to catch the exciting fight between Germany & Argentina. Well, no one seem to be betting cause it's such a risky bet on your cold hard cash yeah?

Xinni loves soccer boys.
Below is unnatural Xinni for you. Check it out!

Xinni: Haha but i still love my kaka.
Xinni: So handsome!!!!!!!!!!!!
Charisa: Eeeeeeeyer you're so gay
Xinni: Haha yeah im gay. I'm happy mannn.
Charisa: Sure thing man.
Xinni: Haha yeah!
Xinni: Hahaa! what? kaka is cute! im kaka crazy!
Xinni: Yeah he has that boyish charm to sweep any girl of her feet!
Xinni: Hahhaa too bad he is married. Yeah his bride is like 18.
Charisa: HOTTER THAN YOU LA.
Xinni: Ok looking only la. Haha I also know. Damn sad.
Charisa: Why sad? Find a Kaka look-alike la.
Xinni: Hard to find man. There's only one Kaka.
Xinni: Just look at his face. OMGGGGGG CUTE!

Suddenly, I felt that Xinni is a pitiful lost(love) girl.
Okay I'm running out of nonsense. Goodbye sweeties.

Have you seen the keys that leads to me?
Cause I can't find myself, I'm running out of time.

School is very very tiring. It drains me. In & out, up & down (if there's such a thing). I certainly hope next week will be better. Tomorrow is friday & I'm so looking forward to cause it's close to the weekends (btw an extended one till monday). Only thing I'm not looking forward to is Chinese O's Orals. Frankly speaking, I'm not prepared & boy, that's why I am fretting now, digging into a guide book (all the hot topics that're likely to be tested). & it's really dreading cause being index number one, I'm the second last to take the oral exam cause being so 'lucky', Michelle & I are the only two from our class having to take the exam tomorrow (attached to the end of 4A). The rest of the class will be taking it the following week on tuesday so they'll have the weekend more to prepare.

So tomorrow will be an exciting day. Chinese orals, beginning of the extended weekend & Germany(!!!) vs Argentina(!!) all together are just too exciting. I don't think I will be able to sit still.

Okay I am so fretting.

You've had it all along the bravest heart of mine

Deleted the previous entry cause after steaming off I found myself vulgar. Don't worry, it was just some anger provoked by my dad. I was thinking of moving out/running away. But I think it was my monthly alarm/moodswing. Ohwell I guess all is well now. School has started & is boring plus I gotta wake up so early. Sometimes I wished I was home-schooled. Then I can wake up later, plan my schedule/time table & have the comforts of my home when studying (fridge!). Hur. Btw the school's new mini hockey pitch is up. So small like smaller than a quarter of a full pitch but still better then nothing :)

I feel sleepy I wanna sleep goodbye!

Only the stars knows your way

Went to Johor yesterday for food oh glorious food. Seafood dinner was really good. Didn't have much time to do shopping. Today will be church outing/bbq & I'm not gonna eat much cause I've been on a huge binge lately. Sort of gotten enough of good food. Was visiting blogs and I suddenly felt that I've been detached from so many people. Some have changed their url, some have changed their blogskins/template. & I discovered some preeeeetty good new layouts. Okay I know I'm slow but hey I haven't been bothered to read blogs these days. Geez. Well, actually it'd been very long since I read most of your blogs. Gotta change some links but am lazy today.

Alright, my stand is that Germany & Argentina will reign today, whatdo'cha think? Gotta refrain from watching late night games when school starts. Bad things are happening. I think I am feeling the stinky aura. The worst of all, school is starting on monday.

Forgive me my weakness cause I don't know why

Little books/things can get me thinking & reflecting, unless of course they are pitiful emo-arousing stories or painful sights/experiences of over-comers. Lately did I realise that history has that sort of power it gets me thinking. I think, why did the many war(s) happen, what so strong could arouse hatred that can make men torture, rape & kill? Really, something must be strong enough to make them do gruesome things like that.

History is bitter. I think it all started with different idealogies, greediness & selfishnes of men that resulted in that great hatred & then slowly pain & death(s). I would never want to live a day of such horror. Both shame & regret (not me!) to look back on the past wrongs. I think history is wasted (maybe except the fact that hopefully we learn from it).

Now I watch the news everyday & I think we (people in Sg) should really just count our blessings (I'm not trying to promote National pride or whatsover even though National Day is coming hur). Everyday in news, we see many countries suffering from natural disasters, poverty & broken up families (even divided countries). Then here we have so much comfort maybe too much which made us too full (too much food), we start to complain. Complain bout the heat but hello, I think compared to those countries suffering from floods, hurrincane & earthquakes, we'd better shut up. Oh so much glorious food we suffer from over-nourishment (hmm never got a taste of poverty) & in some sad cases ended up getting cancers. All have a roof over our heads but we still complain that we don't have a spacious enough house, a only small car to drive. Sometimes I think we're so pampered we deserve to be slapped (or rather shot). Actually I think we paid (in a way) for our blessings. We 'exchanged' raw materials (cause we're without) with good climate & no earth-shaking natural disasters (so far). Worthy 'exchange', if you think the same way cause we're without raw materials but yet we seem to be prospering at a good rate. I think I'm making some sense here (this is to those who're not senseless/****** who think all great bout their small self), right?

Such Shame (on ourselves).

Sorry, my mind'd been wild lately, thinking of really wierd things. My all-long (sorry no such words but i hope you get my drift) ambition even changed! I wonder why am I talking bout wierd things which I hope they somehow link. I bet no one at sixteen will have such wierd thoughts. Meaning I'm wierd (or becoming)?

Anyhow, soccerooos, I'm back. Goody news Germany & England will not meet any soon. I know this news is too late cause I was too sleepy to show my happiness here after watching the England game till 5am. & I didn't come online yesterday so forgive me. But as an England fan (maybe), I should somewhat rejoice I guess. England's not exactly performing superbly well (letdown sometimes) but I think they have the potential. Just that their strikers never seem to score (most of the goals are coming from the midfield). Like the goal Joe Cole scored & Gerrard is still the best man. So sad Owen is injured & out for five(!!) months :( Btw cheer for Japan (vs Brazil) at 3am, pray for underdog luck yeah.

You can try to hide away every drop of rain
that's hanging over you

I was studying history & I finally realised the significance of the past & the importance to learn from it. Well, luckily men did if not we would still be living the way men did centuries ago. I guess without yestersay(s) (history), we wouldn't have a more peaceful & happier today/tomorrow.

I have this great urge to share something interesting & hilarious that's why I came online to add an entry. I was studying about China and I realised that the most ridiculous things had happened in history. Was learning the 1911 Revoultion & the consequences the revolution brought. One of the consequence was really funny. So, during the period of the anarchy, life became worst for the peasants. The Warlords allowed the Landlords to push rents up & collect taxes in advance. In Sichuan (a part of China) by 1923, the local Warlords had collected taxes in advance up to 1968. Some simple maths, 1923 to 1968 = 45 years!! Oh man imagine you were the poor peasant who paid taxes in advance up to forty five years. Say you were 65 year old (back-breaking but still working in the fields just to pay rent & taxes in advance). You wouldn't even live up to 110 years old to live the taxes you've paid. Oh what corruption :( Such poor peasants.

Funny/ridiculous yet pitiful (for the peasants), isn't it? It certainly cracked my day & boy, I sure found some small interest in studying history. Speaking of Sichuan, youknw the Sichuan beef noodles served at SilkRoad Noodle Bar is so yummy! & not forgetting the delicious Xiaolong Pao & Scallop Dumplings (Sorry to those who've not eaten their lunch). For a moment you'll find yourself eating in "modern China". Hur.

Anyhow, soccerooooos (I'm not much of a kickball/soccer girl but I love watching games & the excitments cause it kills). Anyhow, there are again exciting games today/tomorrow. I certainly hope that Germany & England wins tonight to top their group so they won't meet each other yet in round two (cause I feel it's too early for such killer excitments) but even if fate fell short & they've to meet, it would be interesting, wouldn't it? I really hope Owen plays. Dknw if I should say I'm happy that Crouch might not be playing but well let's see what Rooooney (the oh-so-prized teen star) gotta give. I think England needs Gerard & Lampard alot to back up their defence & push up the attacks so hope they play but don't get carded. But well, as fans (maybe) of England, I'll just keep my my faith (& also my fingers crossed).

I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight

There're exciting games tonight I think I won't have to sleep. Brazil vs Aussie, Japan (!!) vs Croatia & France vs Korea. Guess it's obvious who I want to win each game. Seriously, I hope Japan wins if they don't they're likely to be out :( I just remembered there's english orals (prelims) tomorrow. Oh & is there training too? Someone text me please.

Mad, how is it going? I'm counting on you. Actually I've a backup. But how is it with you? Let me know between 7-8pm alright? Thanks Love.

This is so Soccer Fever (HOT)!