sorry i can't be perfect
sometimes i can't help wonder what's the perfect reason of life. life is so tough with so much ups & downs & it's just too unpredictable. you never know when something will happen & take your life away. our lives are in God's hands. i mean we all gotta die & leave this world. it's just whether or not we get to 'experience' life on earth. well, it's important cause if i wasn't born to this earth, i would have missed out on alot. all the wonderful people i've met & known, all the fun play & shopping. & not forgetting, the experience of God's manifestation of His great love, grace & mercy.
& the thing with human being is that we always tend to compare what we have with others. even our life, the quality of life, the things happening in others' life & we somewhat never seem to be satisfied with our own life. we always feel that others have a better life than us, like the grass is always greener on the other side, but hey. it's as difficult, if not even more difficult to cut.
yeah you can't chose how you look which family you're born in but you got a choice how you wanna shape your life. so now we all gotta learn to look at the positive side of life. i gotta learn too. life's more than just all the material comfort. much much more than that. i don't care what people say, it's alright cause jackass i can't make everyone happy. i'll just do the right thing even if it doesn't fit the world. i should learn to appreciate things & people around me more & whine less. that'll do me alot of good. & study hard for next year. that's the first piority as for now. yeah i'll go be a good girl & study.
wait, shopping tmrw first. haha.
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
do you feel lost inside
of someone else's life?
hey. it'd been a gazillion years since i posted an entry. well, maybe not really a gazillion years but it feels like i haven't been taking care of my blog for a looooong time. who wanna be my blog care-taker? haha.
back from malaysia (malacca, kl & penang). everything was good except for many people falling sick during the trip. get well soon! tournament was good. two teams got into the finals & fer lai got the best goalie award & ms martens got the best player award. we met the obs boys at kl mega mall. & 'accidentally' met charlton on the road. haha how small the world is boy! the team bonded quite abit, food was good, shooooopping was good. everything is great!
there's flooding in four northern states of malaysia and we were in penang (also a northern state) when that happened. all thanks to God cause we only experience small rains that didn't result in flooding. & we all came back safely. remember last year there was the tsunami & penang also got hit? we came back on the 22th & the tsunami came on the 26th. we got back on the same week as the tsunami. so close! God is good, all the time.
do you feel the christmas cheer? jingle jingle all the way, cause santa claus is coming to town! haha well maybe not. that's only for kids like you. christmas is merely four days away & i don't feel the christmas spirit & cheer at all. maybe i've been too busy & caught up with things in life that i don't feel christmas anymore.
many many parties coming up. which ones should i go? i'm in such a delimma. maybe i just won't go for all? haha.
alright. that's bout it for today. it's more like a blog 'revival'. so for those who think that my blog is dead, hey it'd just been revived :) get busy with all your christmas shopping & celebrations people. bye lovelies!
of someone else's life?
hey. it'd been a gazillion years since i posted an entry. well, maybe not really a gazillion years but it feels like i haven't been taking care of my blog for a looooong time. who wanna be my blog care-taker? haha.
back from malaysia (malacca, kl & penang). everything was good except for many people falling sick during the trip. get well soon! tournament was good. two teams got into the finals & fer lai got the best goalie award & ms martens got the best player award. we met the obs boys at kl mega mall. & 'accidentally' met charlton on the road. haha how small the world is boy! the team bonded quite abit, food was good, shooooopping was good. everything is great!
there's flooding in four northern states of malaysia and we were in penang (also a northern state) when that happened. all thanks to God cause we only experience small rains that didn't result in flooding. & we all came back safely. remember last year there was the tsunami & penang also got hit? we came back on the 22th & the tsunami came on the 26th. we got back on the same week as the tsunami. so close! God is good, all the time.
do you feel the christmas cheer? jingle jingle all the way, cause santa claus is coming to town! haha well maybe not. that's only for kids like you. christmas is merely four days away & i don't feel the christmas spirit & cheer at all. maybe i've been too busy & caught up with things in life that i don't feel christmas anymore.
many many parties coming up. which ones should i go? i'm in such a delimma. maybe i just won't go for all? haha.
alright. that's bout it for today. it's more like a blog 'revival'. so for those who think that my blog is dead, hey it'd just been revived :) get busy with all your christmas shopping & celebrations people. bye lovelies!
Wednesday, November 30, 2005
confessionals
it's been awhile since i'm back from lumut. okay but not to mention that all our hearts are somewhat still back there. ohwell. life back home is great. i've everything i want & everything comes so easily available back here. but life just feels different after coming back from lumut, in both good & bad ways i think. i'm always wondering why.
met up with lydia yesterday night in town :) so nice to see her. but we didn't have much time with her. hope to see her & everyone soon. everyone in oyp, come to sg okay. missing you guys a whole damn lot! :(
i'm overspending alot, especially the frozen cash & i think i should stop. december just started & i need cash especially chrissymas. these few years'd been bad cause i don't really feel the christmas cheer & spirit anymore. i want party party party! when i was a kid, i was always soooooo excited & happy about christmas. for Christ the Saviour was born & is to come.
okay okay. i shall stop here & tell the christmas story another time alright? stay tune my loves.
it's been awhile since i'm back from lumut. okay but not to mention that all our hearts are somewhat still back there. ohwell. life back home is great. i've everything i want & everything comes so easily available back here. but life just feels different after coming back from lumut, in both good & bad ways i think. i'm always wondering why.
met up with lydia yesterday night in town :) so nice to see her. but we didn't have much time with her. hope to see her & everyone soon. everyone in oyp, come to sg okay. missing you guys a whole damn lot! :(
i'm overspending alot, especially the frozen cash & i think i should stop. december just started & i need cash especially chrissymas. these few years'd been bad cause i don't really feel the christmas cheer & spirit anymore. i want party party party! when i was a kid, i was always soooooo excited & happy about christmas. for Christ the Saviour was born & is to come.
okay okay. i shall stop here & tell the christmas story another time alright? stay tune my loves.
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
you're my sunshine
back from OMB LUMUT yesterday. this is the best camp i'd ever had. i think i've leant alot & grown from this camp. first two days of the camp was more of ice-breaking & getting to know others. then we did rope climing & the basics of kayaking, building tents & setting fire. the first expedition for my group was the kayaking(sea) expedition. we kayaked to pulau pangkor island, did abseiling & camped for a night there. then it was the solo camp. i'm so lucky to get my tent next to the waterfall so i could bath. the camp was supposingly supposed to be alone(solo) but we ended up having more like a picnic & talked alot. then when the instructors came, everyone scrammed back to their tents. & they're so sweet they brought me food they cooked for dinner cause i can't start a fire. the night was so freaky i kept wondering if there are animals around my tent. by seven pm it was pitched dark so i went to sleep. the night alone was so damn long & time seemed to pass too slowly. the last expedition was the land expedition & it's the most enjoyable & memorable one for me. we trekked in the jungle. we slided, skidded & fell in the mud & even got leech bites. we had to trust each other so much & that really bonded the team. we got to the campsite just when the was about to start & we put up our tents just in time. we made a bonfire & talked till past midnight. i was trying to sleep outside the tent & i can't sleep. it's really cold & too many mosqitoes causes too much itch. then lastly was the cultural exchange programme & campfire night. we took speed boat to pangkor island & shopped there. i dknw how but i got high during the bbq night so i pulled bernetta & carolyn around and make them groove to the music. haha. at the end of the night, jillian & i got too emo when we sang auld lang syne, we cried.
anyway, my watch changed the lyrics of the songs & dedicated it to nizam & lydia as our performing item -
you treat us like leaders
you gave us hints as clues
you shone the light of love on us
you gave us answers we don't trust
you opened doors that close
in a land that anything bites
but we'll still love you like was always do
thank God we found you
we would've been lost without you
out every fear was washed away
when you came by & showed your face
you brought the laughters
completed the journey
we're overwhelmed by gratitude
never ever will we forget your love
i enjoyed the trip to the fullest. two words; satisfactory, excellent. every single bit of it, i love it. to think that i actually dreaded going before i even went. now i would have regretted my life if i missed out on this wonderful camp. it's so sad we all gotta leave; especially coming back to singapore. i made many new & good friends. goodbye is always the hardest to say & i hate it cause i can't keep my emotions from spilling so i cried. sentimental attatchments always keeps me grounded & it's always the case when i can't let go. but i'm sure that all the friendships built over in the last ten days are not gonna end just there. who knows, it might last us ten years or a lifetime.
now i appreciate everything i have so much more. i've grown from being an uncontented girl, to a happy & satisfied girl. i've got everything i need to have, even more. & i've God, so what more do i really need, seriously. i give all thanks to God for this putting me through this camp, giving me wonderful instructor, course assistant, watch members & of course listening to my prayers in times of fear. God is so amazing. i will be still & know you're God.
back in singapore & now i need to do shopping. i need new shoes & clothes. by the way, if any of you come to singapore to shop, give me a notice or a ring. i'll bring you around. lets hit the malls!
back from OMB LUMUT yesterday. this is the best camp i'd ever had. i think i've leant alot & grown from this camp. first two days of the camp was more of ice-breaking & getting to know others. then we did rope climing & the basics of kayaking, building tents & setting fire. the first expedition for my group was the kayaking(sea) expedition. we kayaked to pulau pangkor island, did abseiling & camped for a night there. then it was the solo camp. i'm so lucky to get my tent next to the waterfall so i could bath. the camp was supposingly supposed to be alone(solo) but we ended up having more like a picnic & talked alot. then when the instructors came, everyone scrammed back to their tents. & they're so sweet they brought me food they cooked for dinner cause i can't start a fire. the night was so freaky i kept wondering if there are animals around my tent. by seven pm it was pitched dark so i went to sleep. the night alone was so damn long & time seemed to pass too slowly. the last expedition was the land expedition & it's the most enjoyable & memorable one for me. we trekked in the jungle. we slided, skidded & fell in the mud & even got leech bites. we had to trust each other so much & that really bonded the team. we got to the campsite just when the was about to start & we put up our tents just in time. we made a bonfire & talked till past midnight. i was trying to sleep outside the tent & i can't sleep. it's really cold & too many mosqitoes causes too much itch. then lastly was the cultural exchange programme & campfire night. we took speed boat to pangkor island & shopped there. i dknw how but i got high during the bbq night so i pulled bernetta & carolyn around and make them groove to the music. haha. at the end of the night, jillian & i got too emo when we sang auld lang syne, we cried.
anyway, my watch changed the lyrics of the songs & dedicated it to nizam & lydia as our performing item -
you treat us like leaders
you gave us hints as clues
you shone the light of love on us
you gave us answers we don't trust
you opened doors that close
in a land that anything bites
but we'll still love you like was always do
thank God we found you
we would've been lost without you
out every fear was washed away
when you came by & showed your face
you brought the laughters
completed the journey
we're overwhelmed by gratitude
never ever will we forget your love
i enjoyed the trip to the fullest. two words; satisfactory, excellent. every single bit of it, i love it. to think that i actually dreaded going before i even went. now i would have regretted my life if i missed out on this wonderful camp. it's so sad we all gotta leave; especially coming back to singapore. i made many new & good friends. goodbye is always the hardest to say & i hate it cause i can't keep my emotions from spilling so i cried. sentimental attatchments always keeps me grounded & it's always the case when i can't let go. but i'm sure that all the friendships built over in the last ten days are not gonna end just there. who knows, it might last us ten years or a lifetime.
now i appreciate everything i have so much more. i've grown from being an uncontented girl, to a happy & satisfied girl. i've got everything i need to have, even more. & i've God, so what more do i really need, seriously. i give all thanks to God for this putting me through this camp, giving me wonderful instructor, course assistant, watch members & of course listening to my prayers in times of fear. God is so amazing. i will be still & know you're God.
back in singapore & now i need to do shopping. i need new shoes & clothes. by the way, if any of you come to singapore to shop, give me a notice or a ring. i'll bring you around. lets hit the malls!
Thursday, November 10, 2005
longest yard
this is my last entry before i leave for eleven days in lumut tomorrow morning. & now i know i'm so gonna miss my comfy bed, computer, the new huge plasma tv & stereo speakers which i blast my music & the everbest people around. well, at least my favourite girls (always in my heart) would be with me on this trip. thank God.
anyway, my heartfelts...
to people back here, take care & we'll all be back.
to people i've taken for granted, thanks for always standing by & i'm sorry i never seem to appreciate you but i do, really.
to november, thanks for this holidays.
to God, thank You for Your mercy, grace & love. Father, You're King over the storm. i stand in awe of You.
satisfied with this.
this is my last entry before i leave for eleven days in lumut tomorrow morning. & now i know i'm so gonna miss my comfy bed, computer, the new huge plasma tv & stereo speakers which i blast my music & the everbest people around. well, at least my favourite girls (always in my heart) would be with me on this trip. thank God.
anyway, my heartfelts...
to people back here, take care & we'll all be back.
to people i've taken for granted, thanks for always standing by & i'm sorry i never seem to appreciate you but i do, really.
to november, thanks for this holidays.
to God, thank You for Your mercy, grace & love. Father, You're King over the storm. i stand in awe of You.
satisfied with this.
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
special team
i wanna make you feel beautiful
hockey workshop in school today. it's really fun, interesting & highly entertaining. especially the first part where was introduce ourselves to mrs quek-tan. she seem really nice. yknw what? she said that she's a combination of miss quek & mr tan. haha cause before she got married, she was miss quek. then she married a mr tan so she became mrs quek-tan. interesting. anyway, i'll try my best to remember & name everyone but sorry if i missed you out okay? there's too many to remember.
NICE nicolette, MERRY marrisa, CRAZY charisa, JOYFUL jillian, BEAUTIFUL bernetta, XTRAORDINARY xinni, MAD madeline, BRIGHT brenda, PASSIONATE priscilla, CHEERFUL carolyn, HAPPY hitomi, SENSIBLE sushmita, DETERMINED dora, HAPPY-GO-LUCKY hanwei, FRIENDLY ferlissa, TALKATIVE tay weizhen, SUPERSTIOUS shihui, YOUNG yingying, JOVIAL jeniffer, CRANKY charmaine, NONSENSICAL nicole, JOYOUS jeslyn, OBEDIENT ona, VERY HARDWORKING vanessa, KIND kimberly, MUMBLING melanie, EXCITED elizabeth, CLUMSY christabel, ROUGH rouqi (kim tan), WIERD wenli, PLEASANT priya, LANKY lyn li, CARING chiang yinghui, LUCKY lorraine & ROWDY rahmuna. I LOVE JENIFFER THE MOST. SHE'S SO CUTEEEEEEEEE.
haha omgosh i think it's so funny, don't you think so? we have wierd but unique people in the team. & i just found out today that kimberly's chinese name is rou qi. haha that sounds so soft, gentle & sweet. so unlike her. haha.
then we did some vision & goal setting for the team. we wanna be the best, not the second best. the sec3s came out with triple G' -
GO GOLD GOAL. GO!
now the word gold will run in our blood till we win the championships next year.
after the workshop, queensway with my favourite girls & then back home. i'm gonna sleep now then pack for lumut. one more day & it's the eleven days lumut trip. briefing in school tomorrow in miss emily's classroom.
i wanna make you feel beautiful
hockey workshop in school today. it's really fun, interesting & highly entertaining. especially the first part where was introduce ourselves to mrs quek-tan. she seem really nice. yknw what? she said that she's a combination of miss quek & mr tan. haha cause before she got married, she was miss quek. then she married a mr tan so she became mrs quek-tan. interesting. anyway, i'll try my best to remember & name everyone but sorry if i missed you out okay? there's too many to remember.
NICE nicolette, MERRY marrisa, CRAZY charisa, JOYFUL jillian, BEAUTIFUL bernetta, XTRAORDINARY xinni, MAD madeline, BRIGHT brenda, PASSIONATE priscilla, CHEERFUL carolyn, HAPPY hitomi, SENSIBLE sushmita, DETERMINED dora, HAPPY-GO-LUCKY hanwei, FRIENDLY ferlissa, TALKATIVE tay weizhen, SUPERSTIOUS shihui, YOUNG yingying, JOVIAL jeniffer, CRANKY charmaine, NONSENSICAL nicole, JOYOUS jeslyn, OBEDIENT ona, VERY HARDWORKING vanessa, KIND kimberly, MUMBLING melanie, EXCITED elizabeth, CLUMSY christabel, ROUGH rouqi (kim tan), WIERD wenli, PLEASANT priya, LANKY lyn li, CARING chiang yinghui, LUCKY lorraine & ROWDY rahmuna. I LOVE JENIFFER THE MOST. SHE'S SO CUTEEEEEEEEE.
haha omgosh i think it's so funny, don't you think so? we have wierd but unique people in the team. & i just found out today that kimberly's chinese name is rou qi. haha that sounds so soft, gentle & sweet. so unlike her. haha.
then we did some vision & goal setting for the team. we wanna be the best, not the second best. the sec3s came out with triple G' -
GO GOLD GOAL. GO!
now the word gold will run in our blood till we win the championships next year.
after the workshop, queensway with my favourite girls & then back home. i'm gonna sleep now then pack for lumut. one more day & it's the eleven days lumut trip. briefing in school tomorrow in miss emily's classroom.
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