i just want to be, i just want to be with you

mmm i'm back from church and i didn't see my eyecandy today. grrr he wasn't at the lobby after my church ended like always. he should be there, but he wasn't there today. just a bunch of little boys kicking a ball around. sigh okay i'll just have to wait for next week then. hopefully i can get to just see him, then i'll be more then happy. haha.

mmm there're some people who just can't keep their words and their promise, they just make empty promises. i mean, whats that for? if you can't keep your promise then please just close your mouth and don't let those words slip out your lips. its not exactly very quite nice to make empty promises and make others go happy for awhile. and whats so much with the world, the material and branded stuffs? are those things really important? do they really make you happy? if they do, then i'm sad to say; you belong to this world, which is not of the heavenly father.

looking forward to cheryl's BBQ this tuesday. at least i have something to do on tues. mmm i think i'll be having dental appointment on wednesday and some family appointment, so i might not be able to attend trng on wednesday. there's trng tomorrow and i need to get my rest early tonight. yawn.

oh and there's someone who's starting to spam my tagboard again. i dunno whether its the same people, but whatever. i don't think i offended anyone and why don't i have the right to have a tag board? if you say i'm asking for trouble by putting a tagboard at my blog, then i ask you, what trouble am i inviting? you to spam my board? but hey, i didn't invite you to spam my blog that is, and if you would just like to save some trouble for both yourself and me, then just sod of please.

anyway,
happy halloween! :)
after halloween, its boxing day, then its my favourite; RED CHRISTMAS! yay! :)

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` blame it on the boggie

a thousand miles, vanessa carlton

making my way downtown
walking fast
faces passed
and i'm home bound

staring blankly ahead
just making my way
making my way
through the crowd

and i need you
and i miss you
and now i wonder...

if i could fall
into the sky
do you think time
qould pass me by
'cause you know
i'd walk
a thousand miles
if I could
just see you
tonight

it's always times like these
when i think of you
and i wonder
if you ever
think of me

'cause everything's so wrong
and i don't belong
living in your
precious memories

'cause i need you
and i miss you
and now i wonder...

if i could fall
into the sky
do you think time
would pass me by
'cause you know i'd walk
a thousand miles
if i could
just see you
tonight

and i,
i don't want to let you know
i, i
drown in your memory
i, i
don't want to let this go
i, i
don't...

making my way downtown
walking fast
faces passed
and i'm home bound

staring blankly ahead
just making my way
making my way
through the crowd

and i still need you
and i still miss you
and now i wonder...

if i could fall
into the sky
do you think time
qould pass us by
'cause you know
i'd walk
a thousand miles
if could
just see you...

ff i could fall
into the sky
do you think time
would pass me by
'cause you know
i'd walk
a thousand miles
if i could
just see you
if i could
just hold you
tonight

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mmm i love this song. anyway, my post for today is below. :)

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good morning sir, would you like to donate?

today was flag day, i was selling flags in town. it wasn't really that good or great either. we didn't exactly did our job well, we were slacking after the first hour but at least we managed to collect quite a bit, it wasn't exactly easy, cos there were many other schools selling flags too. but above everything, it just made me realised something; singaporeans are selfish and stingy. horrible people. i dunno why people carrying LV, gucci, pranda, valentino, dior bags(whatever brands you can think of) and those even wearing gucci pants, dior sunglasses and LV shoes, so sophiscicated dressed can't just stop and drop even a single cent into the donation bag. i mean they're those of the people with higher and better living standards then the rest, and thats why they should be those who have better financial ability to donate more, okay don't talk about more, but they don't even donate a cent. they just walk pass and pretend like they didn't see you or even better, tell you they don't have small change to drop a donation. but since they're so rich they have so much big notes, then why can't they just drop them in? its for a good cause anyway, its not as if we're begging them for money. horrible rich people, i call them; poor little rich people. they're rich cos they have a lot of money, but they're poor cos they're selfish and stingy. its those commoner wearing simple clothes and taking no brand bags that donate, some even donate notes.

what is the world becoming?

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anyway, i saw the remaining singapore idol finalists; olinda*, sylvester, taufik, leandre and daphne. they were having a public appearence outside heeren. haha i was so excited especially when i saw olinda. cos i can't help but love that girl. she's so cute and i love her so much. i think she's the best with the best talent and attitude towards changing for the better and singing, and i want her to win. i LOVE olinda. she's my sexy mama. yay! :)

oh i have church tomorrow and i can see my eyecandy. haha i'm so happy i'm so excited i can't wait for church to end, i can wait to see him. oops.

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is a never wish better then this, when you only got a hundred years to live

in the end, i wanna be standing at the beginning with you

hello folks. good news, i don't have to retain next year. i wasn't given a chance to, i wasn't allowed to retain by the school, but given the chance, i would. i want to start all over again. but since i can retain, i'll promote to sec3 express and start all over again.

it isn't difficult to believe that its the end of school term, end of the whole school year, cos time really flies. i'm feeling great and not too great, i'm having mixed feelings about end of the school year. of cos its great that we could put away our books and enjoy this hols. okay i know its not as if we studied really hard that we deserved a good break, but its still a chance for us to take a break from school, well at least for myself. i'm really tired of school, i need a break, i need my rest.

i'm not feeling too great about end of school term cos its my streaming year and i know that i'm gonna miss my sec2 class, being in a class together. i know when it comes to splitting up or graduation, i'll just be filled with emotions. i dunno whether its a good thing, but i think its always sad to split up, especially when you think that you've found the friends, those that you would really want to keep for life. i dunno about the rest, but i know im going to miss being in the same class with everyone.

its not like we(2b) have the best student or maybe have the prettiest in the school or anything like that. we were actually nothing, but i can see everyone grow from inmature silly little girls from sec1 to more matured girls in sec2. it has been two years, two long years, but it seem like it was just yesterday. there're so many fond memories that will always be kept close to my heart. i'll remember our sec1 orientation camp, sec1 efl, sec2 efl camp and the recent class BBQ party. come to think of all these, i just feel so warm.

so much had happend this two years. both good and bad, but i've learnt a lot from everything that had happened and to accept everyone the way she is. there were some conflicts, and i'm here to apologise to those whom i've scolded, offended and even hurt in anyways. i'm really sorry but its what we've all gone through that made us stronger and make us bond closer to each other right? please don't take anything to heart.

i feel like doing shoutouts;

2b girls(everyone)
hey girls, these two years spent with all of you was really great and enriching. i've learnt a lot from all of you and i know my sec1 and 2 wouldn't have been the same if it wasn't for all of you there, it wouldn't have been the charisa here. although i hate splitting and if i were given a choice, i would chose to stay with all of you. i hate to say this, but when there's a beginning, there's an ending. its the end of out two years together. i really appreciate all you girls and all the precious memories we had will always be kept close to my heart. all the best in all your different classes, continue to study hard and do well. i know 2b girls are strong and we'll all do it together, no matter where we are alright? i can't help it but i'm going to miss studying with each and everyone of you. 1/2b is a rocks! i LOVE you girls. :)

brenda
hey pebbles! its the end of the year. yay! haha maybe not. just want to thank you again for tolerating my nonsense and my bitchfits at times. i know you're a friend that i'll keep no matter what, no matter when, no matter how long. train hard during the hols. love you :)

cheryl goh
hey you smart girl! its the end of the year, and i know i'll be missing you during the hols and when we split into different classes. jus continue to study hard yes? i know you'll go very far, with your brains. sorry about the conflict we had before and sorry for scolding you that time. i still feel bad about it. haha thanks for everything. -iLy

yi ting
pretty girl! i dunno whether you'll get to read this, but just want to thank you for all the things you've done and helped me through. i know you'll go far with your brains too. just study hard and don't slack. i'll miss you during the hols. iLOVEyousexy.

kylie
my dear councillor, i really had fun hating and loving you. although i only found you more likeable towards the end of the year, but thank you for not catching my belt, eating in class, to using my phone in class. haha no la, actually, thank you for everything. i think you're really nice and i've learnt to like you, but now that we're splitting, i'll miss you. i love you too k. -hug

felicia and joanne
my dears! i will really miss the two of you sitting behind me in classes. you're my best sitting partners in class and i LOVE you! takecare sweets.

shenevie
hello. i know this last term haf been really hard for you. it would have been hard on me if i were you too. all these while, i hope that you've learnt, and not make those same mistakes again. i'm sorry for scolding you and we're still friends k.

maria
mmm so you think i don't miss you la. i miss you too okay. i enjoyed gonig out with you today and yes, we'll go out during the hols but you must date me cos i dunno when you're availale. yes of cos i would want to go into the same class as you. lets see our fate. okay takecare. i'll miss you. i LOVE my genius! :)

eleanor
my precious BOO! i miss you so much where have you been these two days? i know you're studying hard for you Os and all the best for your Os alright? i know you can do it. do your best and God will do the rest. i'll be praying for you. i miss you, i LOVE you! :)

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i'll do anything, just to get to you again

sigh. i think i should be fine. i was going through some terrible and maybe the most difficult phrase of my life till now, the last few days. bad tummy upset and really disgusting results. anw, thanks to those who were concerned. i'm fine and i think i should be able to pull through this. i'm strong, remember? and i think i've came to my final decision. i want to appeal to retain sec2 next year, cause i don't want to promote to sec3 express and get the terrible subj combination. anw, thank God that my parents and family are supportive of me retaining. at least i still have them even if the whole world looks down on me. i'll most probably be promoted and i dunno if its possible for me to retain, but i want to retain. okay i know i sound stupid saying this, but it really wasn't a easy decision to make and its easier said then done. its too late to regret now. yes i would waste one year, but i think i rather waste one year then waste my whole life just because of my failure this time. i don't care about what others will think of me after i retain, but i'm doing this for myself and i want to study sec2 all over again. i'm sick of town, i'm sick of money, i'm sick of all the material stuffs, i'm sick of this world. i'm already over all those. all i want to concentrate doing is, study. sigh. people, just pray for me.

ele and hannah: thanks alright? i should be okay, i guess. takecare too. i miss my BOO and my hannah. see you two sweets soon alright. i'm missing you more each day. -hugs :)

my life is in a horrible shit mess now i dunno what i'm doing i think i'm going bonkers i think i'm gonna die soon. okay blame it on me, those stupid horrible results, those damn things that have been happening these few days. all and all, everything; its all my fault. but its too sometimes, its just too late to regret. yes i know its all done(its easier said then done) yes i know, but this is my end. i'm better off somewhere else then this terrible hellhole. oh and please everyone, please leave me alone. bye.

even heros have the right to bleed \

please please, will you be MY BOO? <3

i've finally decided and i've made up my mind. i'm getting really really tired of going to town and walking around aimlessly. its just like some lost sheep moving around looking for some grass to eat, in this case, walking around and looking for something interesting to do. but but, there seem to be nothing much to do in town, cos when you visit it so frequently, like almost every other day and went into almost every shop and everywhere so many gazillion times. it can really get very very very boring. so i decided, i will not be going to town so often anymore. i shall find some other place to go to or find something interesting to do. mmm i feel like reading and reading now. so people, you wouldn't be seeing me in town so often anymore. so come find me, peek-a-boo. (:

dadidums i'm so happy i'm going to church tomorrow and that means i'll get a chance to see one of my eyecandy. mmm i'm so excited i can't wait to get to church and wait for service to end then i might get to see him. okay i hope i will. :)

eleanor*
hey sweetums, you're and you'll always be my most special* BOO, really you are. anw, thanks for your shoutout. i'm not sweet i think you're the one who took too much chocos and you're really really damn sweet. i can't stand you, i can't resist you dear. haha that sounds wrong. but i love you. you know that i love you and i know that you love me. -ily*