(who), so rockin'

for once, chemistry class was hilarious. awww do youknw sodium is exciting? mr yeo 'performed' the 'reactivity of sodium in water' test. first, he made us stand really 'far'(haha) away from the pot of water. then he put a 'big'(haha) piece of sodium into the pot of water with indicator phenothylene. obviously the water turned pinkpurple cause sodium is alkali. the first time failed but the second time we saw the sodium catch a small fire in the water and then all of a sudden, pop and ahhhhhhhh! the sodium exploded and everyone screeeeeams(!!!) at the state of shock (the true nature of girls revealed). hur, girls are really just girls, really.

okay there you go, i just revised my chemistry. aren't you revising too yeah? then back in class was even more funny. mr yeo asked if the sodium flew to anyone and naughty weiting had to accuse diana (cause she was scratching). funny class.

okay, no-training days are good in a way but also very bad. each day is passing so slowly. friendly game with sajc was cancelled, at least for the sec4s cause...i won't say much here but yeah! we really gotta study and we shouldn't be touched, youknw. hur :(

list of events
i'm looking forward to:
1) the last supper (church tmrw)
2) good friday (holiday!)
3) easter day (celebration!)
4) chem & bio prac? maybe not.
5) yingying's birthday :)
6) my 1st SPIRITUAL birthday
(water baptism btw)
7) marrisa's birthday :)
8) english SA1? maybe not.
9) my sweeeet SIXTEEN (7 may!)
10) definitely not SA1...
11) but definitely the june hols!

i feel your pain, i feel your joy.

at times when i look down
and all i see is sinking sand,
i'm thankful that it's You
the solid rock on which i stand.

life is never easy. well, frankly speaking, it's kinda tough. it isn't at all fair and unfortunate things befall us unpredictably. happiness or joy seem forever to come but worries/problems are never ending.

then i think back (cause good friday and easter day is nearing) on how Christ had been crucified on the cross, and how much He'd suffered for an unworthy wretch like me. i feel that my problems are gone cause Christ had carried the weight of my sins, my everything.

btw, just to share about good friday and easter in case you dknw the significance of it. approx. 2000 years ago, Jesus Christ (son of God) was crucified on the cross for everyone (sinners) in the world. good friday was the day Jesus was crucified and three days later, which is easter day, He ressurected from death. Jesus bore the pain and thought of us above all!

sometimes i think i can't go on anymore but Jesus is my strength.
God is good, give Him Glory!

Your grace had found me
just as i am.
my pain is healed in Your name.
it's been mercy all the way.

it'd not been easy

today was a bad day. i was behaving like a bitch, my fault. sorry favourite girls, today was my pms/
i-want-things-my-way day. i feel really bad now, really. i promise i didn't meant for it.

everyday, i give myself new hope. hope that quickly this day would come for me to walk away from this. everyday i tell myself to be strong, i tell myself not to cry. i hate insecurities. but it seems, i can't find a way out.

'if you cry, your life will always be sad. it's useless to cry. your tears do not wash away your sorrows. they feed someone else's joy. and that is why you must learn to swollow your own tears'. that is why i don't cry so no one knows my misery. who knows? only God knows. i'm so used to it, i tell you, swollowing tears is easy but swallowing your own misery time and time again isn't.

growing up, makes me tired.
in fact, it's killing
everything in me.

strength

when i feel down i look to you
when i feel low your words ring true
its not by might or in my strength
but by Your spirit moving in my life
cause God You are my life

for the first time in my life, i'm busy studying my hearts out (i'm trying to hard to). and i'm no longer addicted to this box i'm facing. i feel quite accomplished. please pray for me so that i can do vectors and finish my study for mid-years. it's really God working in my life. i promise when i collect my o'level results, i'll stand on the pulpit to give thanks and celebrate the faithfulness and glory of God. i'm keeping the faith.
Praise the Lord!

(, dollface)

could i ever,

bacteria are gross things. bio lesson wasn't least bit of facinating, in fact it made me sick. i shall save you the agony and i won't make myself even sicker so i'm not gonna elaborate, hur. & now i can't do vectors all over again. especially the area kind of questions which needs the application of sine/cosine rules
(trigonometry, is my weakest). right now i'm caught between so many weak subjects. my time is running near.

anyway, you'll see me with my red hot paul frank watch next week. so if you see a girl wearing that youknw who preeeetty is. hahahah. if you see identical, youknw who bestfriends are. yes, hitomi?

sister charmaine leow nenghui, charisa leow SI hui'd been missing you, alot, very much. meet up realllllly soon! <3

still

i'll walk closer now on higher way
through the darkest night
You hold my hand
Jesus guide my way

when i am weak You make me strong
for in the power of Your name
all things are possible
my heart will trust in You.

i love the weekends, i'm sad it's all over again. saturday'd been great. i'm loving shopping alone. i know it sounds crazy but i really do. it's good to be alone sometimes (everytime actually). i finally bought my taboo set and a pair of pointed shoes. oh i bought this damn sweet looking red pouch :)

bestfriend, the paul frank watch is hundred&twentynine dollars. do you wanna buy it? :D

had tuition today and i'm starting to enjoy vectors. praise the Lord!