burn your pictures
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yesterday was ptc(parents-teacher conference), so everyone's parents had to go to school to meet their teacher, to collect their report card, to talk about their acadamic performances and their behavior, etc. mrs ang was such a dear. she only said the 'good' stuffs about me, and i'm quite sure for the most of the girls in my class. yeah she just said that i need to study harder and my final exams is the o's. everything she said was good. so i'm pretty happy about ptc this time.

blogger'd been giving me some stupid problem recently and i'm annoyed. i don't understand why my entries appear that way when it was supposed to be appearing perfectly. maybe there's some minor errors with the html codes.

anyway, got to go and get ready for church now.
love much, sweethearts.

feel like a quote, out of context

been living in a fantasy without meaning

wake up and in the morning
and the hurting's so great
don't want to get out of bed
and face a world of hate

life is so miserable. everything is going wrong and nothing's what i want. school work is in such a damn mess. some are hiding things from me, saying and doing things, trying to hide(i don't know why); pretending that everything's so fine when it's not. i say, stop pretending that everything's so fine. it's not like i don't know. sometimes i just want to be locked up somewhere and be stuck alone. i don't want to face this world of hate. someone please, please teach me how to live this life of misery.

i'm sick, sick and tired of this damn world.

when the tears seem so easy to come

put my injuries all in a dice
what i gave is yours to keep

today's entry shall be a random one, cause i don't have much to blog but i just feel like adding a new entry for today.

went for training today. training was super slack, really. we didn't even do any drills. all we did was to hit and throw balls to ferlissa and train her, that's all we did. and honestly speaking, i think fer lai really improved alot. she's quite accurate yknw. i was impressed when i saw her make the saves. xinni number II in the making, maybe. haha. anyway, training sort of ended and just when i was about to go home, madeline hit the ball and the ball hit my ankle, yes, again. it's the God knows how many times i'm injuring my ankle. so now, i've a swollen ankle, and it's so painful when i walk. sigh.

daddy forced me to rub the oilment on my ankle when i don't want. it's so painful and the smell of the oilment is smelly. and mummy was telling me how serious it'll get next time if i don't take care now. she says, i'll get many problems when i grow old and my future husband will have a hard life trying to take care of me. so nonsensical please, that's my mummy for you. haha.

and for those (sec3s) who're still confused about our training schedule; when is training going to resume, or whatsoever not, i'll tell you now. trainings are on, tuesdays, thursdays and fridays. sec3 girls just have to attend trainings at least twice a week, anyday you want, and mr tan says preferably the days when coach's around. yeah, so all the sec3s can decide when we want to attend trainings according to our different schedules.

that's about all. i'm going off to do my homework and revise on some stuffs that i'm confused about. mid-year exams are barely a month away and i need to do well desperately. yeah. i'm off, sugar.

these silly wounds never seem to heal

cause my heart keeps falling faster

just woke up from a one hour nap and i feel so tired and lethagic. no complains about school. school was pretty fine. nothing eventful happened lately. it's just the same old routine over and over again everyday. i still don't like the idea of home-room system. i mean, what's the point of making the students move around after every lesson, climbing up and down. why can't the teachers do that instead? ohwell.

accounts class was funny. mrs ang suddenly went to the back of the class where sally, xinni, maria and i were sitting, and she began explaining the 3-column cash book thing to the class. sally and i needed to reply a text, so we were hoping that she goes back to the front. sally was sitting beside me, maria and xinni were sitting back to back of us. okay, when she finally did, i turned back and saw maria and xinni also taking out their phones to reply. haha and we all instantly laughed. i mean, we were all waiting for her to go back to the front. and it's quite funny if you were one of us.

but anyway, i suddenly feel so tired everyday, ever since the term starts. i don't know why, but well, i feel that i'm going to get quite ill soon. and i feel that i've no life now. i go to school and come straight home after extra classes or whatsoever, but i don't stay out or go out anymore. and it's so unlike of me. sigh. tell me why?

anyway, i heard that we're (sec3s) going to start training on friday. i don't know why it's on friday. if anyone of you know, tell me please? oh, and sports day is next monday. i don't like it, but i hope we'll miss school, anyway. then i'll be happy.

okay, i'm off darlings :)

bend and break

i'd hide my heart and run away

went to church for group discussion, then for tracting. tracting was quite satisfactory. we managed to talk to a woman whom we talked to last time, who's quite open and interested to the gospel. we stood outside her gate and talked to her for fourty five minutes to about an hour. we shared quite abit more to her this time. and maybe it's time God opened up her family and her heart, to let them feel His love. i just have a feeling that, that's the lucky family that God wants to bless.

i just got home from town with some churchmates. and i feel that my feet is quite sore now. maybe it's cause of all the walking with the heels yesterday and today.

anyway, yesterday was our promised dinner from mr tan. it was for all the b'div girls and ms martens and ms quek. we met at bugis mrt station first, and then we walked over to the restaurant. the wait at the train station was quite funny and amusing actually. we were all teasing each other while waiting for everyone to come.

we went to a nice and cosy restaurant which is somewhere along the stretch of bugis street. the restaurant has this european-western aura. it was quite cramped up for all twenty five of us to be in, but well, it was nice and cosy. everything was good, except that their serve was slow. the food was not to bad actually. everyone looked great and glam. those who seldom wears skirts look even more glam! it was really a rare chance, i mean, most of us usually wears skirts and heels, but how often do you get to see xinni and ruth in skirts? it's like a once in a lifetime thing for them(till now). at least i got to see their 'girl assets and elements'.

mm the pictures might be up soon if i can get the file from nicolette. yeah, and i changed my layout and all the credit shall go to nicolette. so, now i owe her ice cream. that girl ah. ohwell.

i'm off, nights.

walk away the days must leave you behind

our happy ending

second honour - northland vs theresians: 2-0

the finals is finally over. so much burdens have been put down, worries rested. i feel so good and happy now. finals with northland was a fairly tough fight. we might have gotten into golden goal or penalties if not for the first goal northland scored during the last five minutes. but we fought back really hard, so we've nothing to regret. we were disappointed with the results, but we were happy with our achievements. and proud of our journey and the results of everything. least, we're gracious in defeat. unlike some other team.

team,
yesterday was a beautiful ending to b'div 05. although we didn't win the championship and made it a perfect ending, we made it a beautiful and happy ending, didn't we? it was really a good and tough fight yesterday. we had our chances of scoring but maybe fate fell short for us. but the most important thing is that we've all learnt and grew to become more sensible girls after the whole journey. and xinni was superfly. she made extremely beautiful and amazing saves. xinni, queen of the 'D', indeed. this is not how our dream'll end. we'll continue our dreams and hold the cup next year. bid'v 2005, you're the bunch of most amazing and wonderful girls to me. and you girls are the best thing that ever happened to me. LOVES :)

this is not when our dreams are gonna end

your pure pretendence,

excuse me, you senseless kids out there, please get your damn facts right, and think before you actually make crude comments and remarks about us. we didn't use despicable or under-hand methods to clinch the second honour. why? still can't get over the fact that we won the semi-fnals? oh wait, maybe you should think of how you got into the quarter finals. who gave you the second life to be back in the whole tournament? please shut up or only say what's true. talk about morals. wait, do i remember hearing some people giving us cheers, screaming so loudly and acting like they thank us so damn much when we gave them a life in the quarter-finals? and after defeat, came up with so many million reasons why they should have won because they deserved it more then we do. some people can never be gracious in defeat. you think you've great morals and high integrity? i think it's just pure pretendence and being cynical. reflect and learn to be gracious in defeat before talking to us about morals.

oh, actually i wonder who are those shallow people mentioned up there. mm maybe those people will know who i'm indicating. dammit please. i feel so pissy now. oh my please.

we're not pushovers - till we meet again