and when the journey's over, and all my dreams come true, i dream of you.

FINALS - our triump, our game
- 23 march(tomorrow!), delta, 3pm.

oh please. i'm so excited for tomorrow; it's our finals. thinking of all the wonderful things that'll happen tomorrow made me so excited. i really really can't wait for tomorrow. i think i'll just be very excited throughout the whole day in school till we're released.

anyway, ms marten's such a dear. she took all the extra efforts to take photos of us(the team) and compiled them into a video with a short story of all the things we've gone through since the start of this b'div tournament. its' entitled, 'a daring adventure', the story of a team of ordinary kids. the video's so nice and sweet. she even printed all the pages of the video and binded them into a booklet for each of us. and i'm sure we love it so damn much, yes?

looking through the video, reading through the contents of the story, recalling all the things we've gone through in this short journey, can really bring laughter, joy and tears to me. i mean, unless you went through this whole thing, you'll never be able to understand how wonderful this whole journey really is. i call it bittersweet; beautiful but painful.

team,
it'd been a pretty damn amazing journey with all of you. and i know that we're the most special and bravest bunch of girls. we reached the finals after so many setback. coach left us halfway along the way, we had to shoulder all the senseless and untrue critics of the world and play without a coach. so what if others think that we don't really deserve to reach this far, and it's luck that brought us here? they might even call us the underdogs, but so? i know that we trained and worked terribly hard and against all odds, played till the finals. we conquered fear, kept each other's hopes alive, believed in each other and our dreams, and made it through with all the courage we all have. i know that we deserve every bit of being in the finals. i'm sure that coach's so damn proud of us and he'll be there to cheer us on tomorrow. regardless of the results of tomorrow's finals, i know that we're already champions in each and every of our own hearts to have reached this far, aren't we? i'm so proud of being in such a wonderful team. tomorrow's the last game of b'div 05 and also the final phrase of our whole journey. let's play the hardest like we never did before and make tomorrow the best and most memorable day of our journey. it'll be our day tomorrow, and this is our year. we'll do the school, coach, ms martens and ourselves proud. b'div 05, you're the best thing that ever happened to me. i love :)

chase our sky-limit dream.

i know we're made of dreams

OUR FINALE. 23 march, delta, 3pm.

we've made it and we're in the grand finals.
and i know we did, cause we wanted it so much more.

this race is all about, beliving in ourselves.

this whole b'division tournament had been a really good learning journey for me and i'm sure for my whole hockey team. it's so difficult to describe in words this wonderful feeling. the best way to comprehen it, is to hear it from the depth of our hearts, really.

many bad and uneventful, good and wonderful things happened along the way, and we supported each other and made it this far. everyone'd been so brave and strong. we carried the weight of all the problems, the unfair judgements and the critisims of the world and hung on together. and we're finally where we wanted to be. don't you think it's great?

i think one thing that made us stronger and brought us through is that -
we're more concern of the journey of the competion; what we're going through, our own performance, and not the results of the competition.

it's so true; what comes around, goes around.

i don't care what the world's thinking, what the world believes, what the world's saying now. cause no one really knows the whole truth. yeah, you think you do, but do you actually know the whole truth? i say, no. whatever you say, can never take away our truth. so if you could please, shut up and stop giving crude and senseless remarks, cause you don't actually know the whole story and you don't have the right to judge.

well, this was what i read from the newspaper a couple of days ago -

competition brings out the best and worst in everyone
not everyone can be gracious in defeat
and that's what makes competition compelling.

it makes some good sense, doesn't it?

no matter what's the outcome of the finals on wednesday, be it a win or a defeat, theresian b'div 2005, you'll will always be the champions in my heart and b'division 2005 will be the best and most precious memories i'll keep, all my years in stc. and for the first time, i'm proud to say; i'm really really proud to be in st theresa's convent.

i know we're made of dreams, nothing else and nobody matters as long as we believe. when dreams lead the way, the impossible is certainly insight. we took the longest road just to make it harder, let's do it all again, it only makes us stronger. we got to keep each other's hope alive, vision clear. we'll conquer fear and make it through together. when the journey's over, and all my dreams come true, i dream of you.

it's time to shine and show that we fly -
FIGHTING FOR THAT PLACE, THE GLORY ONCE AGAIN.
THE SKY IS THE LIMIT, WE'LL CHASE OUR DREAM.

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it'd been grace and mercy all the way

yknw what's the best and most amazing thing that gave me the strength to hang on till now?
i'll tell you. God was always near throughout. bad times and good times, He was always there. i know that He wanted us to learn and win through the hard way and He gave us all the strength to move through everything. God' grace really amazes me so much. thank God for honouring all our hardwork and granting us all the strength and always giving me a satisfactory answer for all my prayers. Lord, please grant us grace and the strength to complete the last phrase of this beautiful journey.

tell me i'm wrong that you're leaving.

why does everything seem so wrong?

today was absurb. everyone wasn't prepared for anything like this. we couldn't hold back our emotions and tears. you did everything because you loved us and you put us before everything (including yourself), and you left cause you made the wrong decisions and did wrong, but it was purely your love and honourable intentions for the team. this was what touched me the most. now you had to leave us just like that.

it's gonna be so different without you on the pitch,
screaming and scolding us on the pitch.
how we wish we'll be hearing more of your scoldings, really.
will you still be there for us?

thank you for your scoldings
thank you for your warm smile and all your laughter
thank you for your trainings and camps
thank you for staying with us through the good times and bad times
thank you for giving us so many chances
thank you for believing in us even when we do wrong
thank you for picking us up when we fall
thank you for everything i am now
thank you for your honourable intentions that even caused you to leave
thank you for the most wonderful memories
thank you for your last words and hugs
thank you for your love for us; the team
thank you for being you, and your everything.

i'm sorry if we'd taken you for granted in the past. we know it's too late to shed tears, but we just can't help it to hear that you're leaving. your ri boys'd better cherish you.

to me/us,
YOU'LL ALWAYS BE THE BEST AND NO ONE WILL EVER REPLACE THE PLACE YOU STAND IN OUR HEARTS. WE LOVE YOU AND WE'LL MISS YOU TERRIBLY. i pray that we'll see you at the finals.

i believe that all things happen for a reason.
it's just in the beauty of God's time.
someday, we'll understand why some things just got to be done that way;
why God put us through all these hard times.

like they always say, all endings are also beginnings.

i'll be praying for your return;
we'll make you of worth to be back.

these tears still have to flow;
it'll be sometime before i can leave everything behind and move on. right now, i still think of the reasons why you had to leave. we'll play for you, we'll show everyone what kind of team you make, and we promise we'll do you proud.

THERESIAN HOCKEY, IT'S TIME TO FLY.

look, we've gone through all these;

prelimary round:
crescent vs stc - 1:1
stc vs punggol - 5:0
stc vs evergreen - 17:0
stc vs yuhua - 1:0

quarter-finals:
stc vs teck whye - 3:0

now that we're over with the prelimary round, we've to play even harder in the quarter-finals, and i believe the semi-finals and finals are near. we'll make this our year and we'll fly, yes? we'll stay strong and play hard together. i know and i believe we can do this together, really. nothing's impossible. we'll fight for that place and we'll win the glory for ourselves, st theresa's and him. love you girls terribly.

let's chase our dream together, the sky's the limit.

- hold me close and hold me fast

hey. it'd been some time since i blog, and since some people have been asking me to blog, i shall blog a short entry. this whole week had been fine, just that the school and training's workloads are increasing, i'm struggling with them, but i'm still fine though. sometimes i get so tired with school and life, i just hope that maybe i can sleep forever. but ohwell, it's not like i can.

oh, under-21's tournament's over and we achieved pretty good results even though we lost and won, but overall, i think everyone play pretty damn well. lets keep it up yes?

anyway, my fractured finger's recovering quite well and it's pretty fine now, i could bend it but not press it too hard, cause it still hurts this little bit. and i'm glad i can be back training and hopefully play well in the coming b'div. though it's still painful, i just got to thank God for letting me recover much faster, in less then a week, whereas the doctors said that i need six-seven weeks (you don't really have to believe doctor's words sometimes, just trust in God and everything'll be fine before yknw it).

i just had a new eyecandy recently, haha i tell you, this new eyecandy, he's different from all the previous ones i had. he's really so damn hot and he's superfly please. :)

okay, that's quite enough. anyway, have a nice long cny hols. :)

i hope you see the heart in me.

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fractured finger
i fractured the fourth finger on my right hand during training on thursday. how did it happen? mr bulb hit the ball and it flew and it hit my finger. i continued playing for awhile, then i realised that my finger was bleeding quite badly. i thought my finger just bleed and swelled up a bit due to the tension when the ball hit my finger. haha but anyway, i went off the pitch to wash up the wound. then i realised that my finger was very swollen, very. so i waited for mr tan to bring me some ice to ice my finger. at that point, it was already very painful. but i didn't know i fracture it.

mr tan and mr bulb told me that its okay, i just need to ice it, but weizhen told me to see the doctor, cos she suffered the same injury on the same finger, same place, the previous week. but since they said it was fine, i went home anyway. after my bath, i crushed the ice (as told by mr bulb) and wrapped it around my fingers. but after awhile, my finger swelled up to an amazing size, almost as huge as my biggest toe. that was when i also felt the most pain. i couldn't take it, so i called daddy up to bring my to the doctor.

at first we went to the clinic, but the doctor said it was quite serious and i needed x-tray. so we went to the hospital. i did the x-tray and it proves my finger was slightly fractured at the top. then the doctor heated up some metal thing and made a hole in my nails to release the blood clot up there. haha, that was painful please, but after that, my finger felt looser. after bandaging, i went home. i took mc to i missed school yesterday.

you might think that without one finger, it would be fine. but, no. i was having such a terrible time doing things without one finger, which also means, without my right hand. sigh. and i can't play today and tomorrow's game, much as i want to. i jusyt hope i can recover in a week's time.

anyway, so much for fractured finger, i'm off now.

you're the one i want to chase.

-

life'd been pretty hectic for me and i think everyone these days. so much books to bring to scool, so much work to do, so much trainings, so much everything. i don't have enough sleep and it shows in class and on my face. i try to get sleep in between lessons and all those terribly fugly pimples are popping out. :(

it'd been three weeks with my new class, but i still don't like, and i hate the idea of seperating with everyone. till now, i miss my past class. its so miserable to see everyone in different classes now, but still in the past years cliques. i can't adapt to my new classmates and this is killing me. oh, someone, please tell me why.

i've bought so many things i want, and now, i feel so broke. actually to be honest, very. mummy and daddy are still in Hokkaido and they won't be back till monday night, but i need cash terribly. yknw it feels so bad to step out of home feeling broke. yknw?

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i've been missing church too much, really. and i'm kind of feeling very bad. i don't read the bible, i don't pray much these days, i'm slacking so much on my quiet time with God, i know i'm losing part of my faith i have in God. sometimes i feel that the presence of God is so far away, i can't feel his mercy and grace the time i need them most. i'm such a failure, i'm such a sinner. its a terrible feeling, i know i badly need some revival for my soul, spiritually and emotionally.

oh Lord, please talk to me during service tomorrow. i know You're watching over me and i'm still Your child. Your grace is never far. i need You terribly now, where're You?

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game with crescent tomorrow. hope we'll play as well as the previous match with northland and everything'll turns out fine.

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but you can't ask me to stay.

i don't want to lose a chance with you

oh i think i'm a happy girl this week. i got almost all the stuffs i want. but maybe i'm still sad. sigh.

i bought my,
- gucci envy perfume
- new grays hockey stick
- a nike shirt
- a pair of nike shorts
- a pair of beautiful red slippers

yes i'm happy with what i bought, but it seems that nothing can fill the terribly bottomless empty feeling in me. nothing, not the stuffs i want, not cash, not nothing. i just want something, but you don't know it.

you might think i'm colourful, but i'm not.

-

went to CHIJ kellock convent in the afternoon to fetch twenty adorable little girls to school to learn hockey. i thought that they were irritaing and terribly pampered kids who doesn't know how to get to st theresa's when its so near from their school and we've to go all the way down to fetch them over.

but i think they're pretty nice and cute in the end. especially this little primary 4 eurasian little girl. oh my, i'll tell you how cute she really is. -

she called her maid to pick her up from st theresa's convent after her training, but her maid doesn't know where's st theresa's convent. so i initiated the idea of her maid taking a cab to st theresa's later. and this was what she told her maid,

'do you have enough money to take a cab? if you don't, you could take some money from my piggy bank.'

oh my please, you could imagine how cute she is, since what she told her maid was already extremely cute. isn't she?

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anyway, mummy and daddy are in Hokkaido(japan) now. haha i'm waiting for their return so i could have my presents and many many chocolates, as they promised. you want to share some? haha i know you do. :)

alright, i'm off for today.

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when you only got a hundred years to live.